HOLY GOD....Someone died in the marathon!! 0_o

OKay, i remember Tiffany telling that she saw someone screaming 'HE HAS NO PULSE' when she was running through her 8th km during yesterday's run.

I don't really know about the details because I believe i was already near the finishing line that time, but she kinda witnessed something tragic and well, in a way...scary..=_=

yes, there was a casualty during the run yesterday. A runner of the 10km category had a seizure and collapse, and medics didn't come immediately. It was a good and salutable attempt by the other runners to revive the collapsed runner but unfortunately it was too late. There was apparently a doctor in training who was also a participant. He and a few others tried to revive him but due to the lack of machinery (no defibrillator, no Oxygen mask..nothing) he passed away on the way to the hospital (or was it upon arrival)

It was indeed a shocking news to me, i didn't expect something that i participated in would have this outcome.

In fact, my situation wasn't that good if i think back. I was actually having cold sweat at the end of the run (about the 8th km) because of abdominal pain. I started walking, then run and then slowed down to walk. I told myself ' I do not want to come back to the finishing line in a stretcher or an ambulance '

Yeah well, it was kinda disappointing if you asked me. The reason for this failure of mine was because there wasn't enough trainning prior to the run. HECK, we didn't even do any stretching and warm up....

BUT ANYWAYS, RIP Mr Lim. (yes, it appeared in the papers, that's how i know his name)

he was only 25 years old.

I believe IMHO, both sides were to be blamed for this scenario. Firstly the Organizers of this event didn't station enough medics throughout the running route. Compared to the Energizer night race, i could barely see any medics around. And the St John's ambulance, well, it's disappointing to know that there weren't any defibrillator nor oxygen mask in the vehicle. (what's the point of the ambulance then!?)

HOWEVER, one should know his own limitations as well. IF you can't do it, do not force yourself. I'm not sure about Mr. Lim's case (he could've been an extremely athletic person or this could be his first time running a 10km run..note that i do not know much about this guy. I only read about him in the papers and forums)

My condolences goes out to his family because as a runner myself, i could understand the feelings of the family members. To leave the house so early in the morning and never coming back.......It will be heart wrenching to the family members.

THOUGH, i'll still join the runs. I have SIEMEN's and SHAPE run next and the last run for this year (for me) would be the Adidas KOTR challenge. After that i'll stop for the year (to concentrate on others stuffs....*coughscosplaycoughs*)

Listening to : Janne Da Arc - Gekkoka

Mood : -_-

after the Standard Chartered run

i almost died....yes, almost died..
why?
well, i've ran a 10km run before, but i almost lost my legs for this one.
I practically didn't train a single thing for this run. I just wore the bib, and went to this event.
Result was WAAAAAYYYY dissapointing for me.....
I had expected to complete it 15 mins less than what i've finished this time.

Well, maybe the gap between my previous run was too wide...
hopefully my next run i'll be well prepared...
(oh, did i mention? i was feeling shitty for the entire run...yes, literally shitty, as in I WANTED TO GO POO when i was running......timing was ...well, shitty..!! ><;;;;)

Next run, SIEMEN'S RUN....here i come!!!!!
GANBATTE ORE!!!!!!

Listening to : SCANDAL - Beauteen
Mood : Exhausted-ly tired...=_=

random post is RANDOM!

AAAA....why did the police stop me at the road block? do i look like some kinda drug trafficker?!
i don't look like a kidnapper now do i?
my maid was in the car with me la, but HEY, shouldn't you be asking for the maid's permit instead of my IC?
do i look like an illegal immigrant now?! will an illegal immigrant drive around in a such a flashy colored car?!
OMAIGOD...=_=

and and and....

OMAIGOD...TOMORROW IS THE 10km RUN..!! JIALAT LIAO..!!!!!
WAHPIANG LIAO!!!! ><;;;;;

Listening to : Hakuouki - Kimi no Kioku
Mood : ...........................

Mentally Exhausted.....

yes, for the past 1 week.....i had a nasty week...
i've never felt so annoyed, frustrated, gah...*insert whatever shitty feelings here*

well, all i can say before i start rambling about my past week's experience is..

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK, I WILL BE USING LOTS OF SWEARING, AND WELL, IF YOU ARE A KAYPOH AND YOU HAPPEN TO SEE YOUR NAME HERE, THEN DON'T BLAME ME.
I AM NOT GOING TO BE DISCREET ABOUT THIS NOW.
(it IS afterall, my blog...if you wanna talk bad about me, then go get a blog and do it yourself)

ANYWAY~
ok...case number 1..
Place : Office
Human concerned : Ca**n (probably can guess la..haha)
Situation :
Hello? i know you're bz, but do not impose your bz-ness on me too...You may be bz with your own products, but do remember, the AnP department works for the WHOLE company, not you only...
So don't come bombarding me with your own works and telling it's fucking urgent. I have other people's work to do which is EQUALLY urgent too..
Do you know why we have to always finish your's first?
it's because you did a ...how do you say it? a 'jump queue' tactic.
You always go to my boss and tell her that yours is urgent, and knowing her, she'll ask us to prioritize yours first because you used the word URGENT on her.
what about the rest?

and another thing is.....OWN UP for what you said/did. Don't go doing taichis and pushing the blame onto others.
Yes, i admit that the mistake in the box measurements was mine, but didn't you also check? I showed you the mock up, and you agreed to it. When problems arise, you walk away with the 'holier than thou' attitude.
Also, it's not that i forgot to insert the address, i LEFT the space blank, knowing you wanted to insert something. But you signed, you forgot....oh...let me repeat...

YOU FORGOT TO PASS ME THE TEXT!!!!!

and what's with your attitude nowadays?
You have been RUDE, yes...RUDE...why do you think i have been talking less to you lately?
why do you think we've been eating in the pantry lately?
Treat others with respect and you shall be treated back with even more respect.

You want me to rush your work for you, yes, i'll rush.....
But, listen to others when others ask for you. Do not show me your 'holier than thou' attitude.
You know, you should be proud because you made me made an entry in my blog for you. This 1 post is dedicated to you.

I know this ramble is getting me no where, heck, the situation is all over the place...you may understand, you might not.
i hope you will come to realize what you've done, and how much you've changed over the past few months.
Though, being forgiving is in me.... i'll never forget all the things that you've bestowed us upon.
The good, the bad, the ugly.......everything.

Case number 2
Venue : Office
Human : NCFM man
Situation:
RUDE HUMAN IS RUDE..!!! I've never seen anyone as rude as him before. First of all, he'll walk to the AnP dpt, and sneeze, and walk away...(yay, go spread your retarded germs everywhere...WEEee!!!)
Then, from inside my boss's room, he could scream so loud asking for something as though you're his maid.....
Also, there was this one scenario whereby i was so bz working on something else, he could scream from outside, demanding me (note, i used the word DEMANDING) to set up the place for the photoshoot. (in actual, the photoshoot was supposed to be for the next day)
When i told him that it'll be too much of a hassle that we set up today, place back and set up again tomorrow, he answered with a very stuck-up 'SO?'...
i got so furious, i answered him back ' Then you wait la' and stormed off......
It wasn't only these few incidents...there were many many other times whereby i couldn't remember the details...if i were to list them out, it'd take me so long that Harry Potter's book is considered short.

All i wanna say here is..
A person only has that amount of patients. I am usually calm and cheerful most of the time, and i hardly say NO to people. But there's a limit to that, and do not test my patients....It's a dangerous game to play because i could give you shit if i want to.
I try not to be involved in company politics because i want to perform well in my job and not be bothered by outside gossips.
But if the source of the gossip comes hunting for me, i couldn't do anything but to protect myself.
At that time, i'll retaliate, and fight back, and when that happens....i'll bite so hard that i'll make sure that i'm the final victor.
Barking dogs do not bite hard, it's those that are quiet that kills.

Listening to : GACKT - Stay the ride alive
Mood : exhausted...much...

Hakuouki episode 12 is soooooOOoo SAD..T^T

i needed to get this off me, thus this entry.

I've seen sad animes, but to watch it raw and to understand it....that's another different thing altogether.

Hakuouki was the only anime in my life which i've watched raw because i couldn't wait for the subbed to be released.

And at episode 12, i could say by far it is the SADDEST episode yet.

2 major characters died in this episode, and yamazaki's death is soooo.....SAD......Inoue Genzaburo's death was also very saddening..

heck, THIS WHOLE ANIME IS SO SO TRAGIC...T^T

(i didn't know it'll be this tragic)

I suppose they put a little bit of this and that from everyone's storyline, and also included the Zuisorouki part a little (the part where Chizuru dressed up as a female)

To think that they used to have fun whilst drinking sake and to relate that to this episode (episode 12), it is really really...heart wrenching....><;;;

I believe if i were to watch this at home, i would've cried...really, Yamazaki's passing was so sad, and it was accompanied by the ending theme.....

Before yamazaki died, he told chizuru to take care of the shinsengumi (i believe he meant their health and well being, my japanese is only so-so...)

and then chizuru just turned away and told him that he should do that himself. She then poured the medicine into the cup for yamazaki, only to see him stop breathing.

THAT SCENE IS ONE OF THE SADDEST AND HEART WRENCHING SCENES EVER..!!!

OH, i heard that this anime will get a 2nd season too..WEEEeeEEEee.!!

it'll be out in autumn (errr....when's that again?)

Hakuouki FOREVEr..!!!

but.....SAD ANIME IS SAD....T^T

p/s gonna continue the game tonight. I've stopped for 1 week already...hahaha..

p/s/s btw, souji's airtime in the anime is just pathethic.....wonder why they didn't want to feature him more....that guy already had a tragic sickness with him, at least give him more airtime......T^T

Listening to : Hakuoki - Kimi no Kioku

Mood : ........ YAMAZAKI...T^T

Malaysian Custom....LIN LAU HIA LA...KNNCCB..!!!

MALAYSIAN CUSTOM REALLY KNNCCB..!!!!

fuckers, RM74 also wanna tahan..!?!?!

eh, my parcel has everything written..........the shipping costs, the item costs, the insurance..

EVERYTHING IS BELOW RM500....

so what are you retards thinking? holding back my parcel like that?

now i have to go all the shit way to lcct to collect my parcel, because of your fucking random decisions to hold back my parcel.

FUCKERs....

KNNCCB........lin lau hia.....

lin bu kena KAN liao izzit?

need me to go all the kanasai way there.....

want to jiak lui you jiak correct parcel punya lui la......

RM74 you wanna tax ka?

i through the money at your face la..RM10 only...

lin pei can pay.....

but what lin pei is pissed off at is AT YOUR STUPIDITY........

if i were you guys sitting your shitty ass there, i would've tahan a RM740 parcel rather than a RM74 parcel.

nvm, LIN PEI will go there and see what sorry excuse you wanna give me for holding back my parcel.

Listening to : Hakuouki - Kimi no Kioku

Mood : fucking pissed at a certain organisation.......knnccb......@#$$#@^@%!%!

a FullMetal Heart.......

" A lesson without pain is meaningless,

For you cannot gain something without sacrificing something else in return;
But once you have overcome it and made it your own,
You will gain an irreplaceable FullMetal heart."

This is what was written on the final pages of the ever awesome manga, FullMetal Alchemist.
Yes, it has finally come to an end....After 9 years and 108 chapters, one of the best manga ever in history has finally finished.


I'll call the manga's ending "brotherhood version"
It was somewhat bittersweet for me though after reading the final chapters. Both endings (the first anime and brotherhood) had Edward sacrificing something for his brother's happiness.
First anime was Edward transmuting himself as an exchange for his brother.In Brotherhood, Edward sacrificed his knowledge of alchemy, the gate of truth for his brother's body.

Somehow, i kinda prefer the ending in Brotherhood. Yeah, well...i mean, after all those struggles, i kinda want those characters in brotherhood to end up happily ever after..(although i'm a sucker for sad and tragic ends, i don't want these characters to suffer...LOL)

ok, back to bittersweet....
Yeah, the awesome series ended.....kinda happy that i don't have to crave over the chapters every month now...but it kinda kills the excitement i look forward to every month...ironic much...
the anime will end in another 1 to 2 episodes time ( i believe episode 63 or so......or was it 62? hmmm....) and that's the wrap up of this series..

all i could say is...
THANK YOU SO MUCH ARAKAWA SENSEI...!!! *bows*
ok, now.....
*goes back to studying Roy Mustang......and completing the accesories of his cosplay*
LOL....

It ENDED..T^T

Listening to : FullMetal Alchemist Brotherhood - Ray of Light
Mood : bittersweet......^^;;;

OH NOESsss...I ATE.....BA ZHANG...!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...!!!!
i've done a sin in which whatever way of confession would not purify...

I ATE BA ZHANG..>!!!!
NOOOOOOOOoo...!!! I GAVE INTO THE DEVILISH TEMPTATION..!!!!!
AAAAAAAA....!! KILL ME NOW....KILL ME NOWWWWWw...!!!!!!!!!!
*goes jump off a building*

FYI - Ba Zhang is a traditional chinese delicacy made out of glutinous rice, pork and a whole lotta other goodies.........it is so delicious, it made me attack that poor dumpling repeatedly.....

BA ZHANG..............BE GONE..!!! *goes brush teeth*

Listening to : Gran Rodeo - Last Smile
Mood : AAAAAAAAAAA.....feeling extremely sinful....

learn how to say NO...

No and Yes....they play an equally important part in our lives.
With just 1 word as such, it could change you fate, your lives, you way of thinking, your decision making....
So, what i'm pondering now is......why can't people learn how to say no in the appropriate time, the appropriate situation?

when someone ask you to rob that old lady crossing that street, would you rush head on and do it without thinking? DUH, obviously, if you have conscience and moral values, you wouldn't hurt that poor old lady.
so, the answer here is No...

Now, where have i heard a certain story......let me try and relate it here.....
i believe the story below would ring many bells....LOL!
(please excuse my HORRIBLE grammar)

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Once upon a time, there was a king who ALWAYS said yes....even to certain issues in his country, in which does not concern him, he'll say yes when his ministers asked him to intervene.
There was once that a neighboring country was in a war, and that he needed more people. Knowing it was a losing battle, that king still sent his men (in which he is already lack of in numbers) into that losing battle, causing many of his own soldiers to lose their lives in that hopeless battle.

Many scorned him for that, they hated their king, for he do not know the right time to say No.

Also, there was another time when his minister told him to store gold belonging to another country in his palace. Without hesitation, the king said....' LEAVE IT TO ME, MY MEN WILL HANDLE IT'

So as time goes by, one by one, the king's corrupted ministers started to ask the king to store goods that DOES NOT BELONG to his country........
His loyal advisors had already hinted and suggested to him not to do so, for it will be his cause of destruction. However, not only did the king not heed their advise, the king told his advisors to HELP the ministers store the goods and ordered the advisors to cease their selfish suggestions.

As time goes by, the neighbouring country started to realise that their goods, their poultry and valuables started to go missing and decrease. Then, only they realized that the king is storing the goods in his palace. When the neighbouring country's leader demanded an explaination, the king could not get the corrupted ministers to answer, much less own up their doing.

When the leaders of the neighbouring country wanted to attack the king's country, the king then turn to his loyal advisors and questioned them...

" Why didn't you stop me from storing those stolen goods?! You are all my advisors, you should be doing your job. You should be helping me to govern the country! Why didn't you execute your job properly!? Why did you neglect your job so!?"

Then, the advisors all answered.....

" We did advised and suggested....we have often hinted to you to say no to those corrupted ministers, but our advises and suggestion fell on deaf ears. Not only that, you ordered us to HELP the ministers too. We had no choice but to follow your orders, for we are only your loyal subjects. You said that by saying no to them, would made you look like a dictator in their eyes, and that they would abhore you, but little did you realise, they were taking advantage of your inability to say NO. "

Thus, the kingdom in which the king has ruled over for so long was attacked and the king fleed to a deserted village.
One day, the king saw a peasant boy and asked.....

"Would you be so kind to share some of that bread you have with me, for i have not eaten for 2 days already. Even the crumb would do "

The boy then answered.....

" NO, OF COURSE NOT, GET YOUR OWN BREAD......IF I GAVE YOU ONCE, THEN YOU WOULD COME AGAIN TOMORROW AND BEGGED FOR FOOD FROM ME. I WOULD NOT ACCEPT THAT!"

Then, the boy stormed away, happily munching his bread, leaving the king with nothing in the end.

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SO, the moral of the story is, learn how to say no at the appropriate time. Yes, you may look like a hero and everyone would adore you when you agree to them....But it will also backfire when others take advantage of that.


Aaaa....finally finished......
I hope this would serve as a reminder to all you out there who often say yes. I've always been a yes person........but being so has lead to many taking advantage of my kindness...
so, NO TO YOU GUYS......

Listening to : Tackey and Tsubasa - Go On
Mood : Hmm.........HMMMMMmmmm........

Wohoo...it wasn't that bad afterall!!

WOhoo.......previously, my entry was about my stupid credit card bills, but turns out.....i didnt owe that much afterall..!!
LOL.....yes, i kinda lost track on my debts..hahaha..

ANYWAy...yeap...after next month (yeah...1 more month to go), i believe i would have cleared my debts..!! (for that card only though.....Orz)
Well, after 3 years of not going to the hairdresser, i finally got my haircut from a professional!!
(not that my cousin isn't good, she was great all these years...IMAGINE THE $$$ I SAVED UP!! XD)

TADAH...here's my new look..!!!


LOL....yeah, a totally different haircut from my previous years....i decided to go REALLY REALLY short..one of my shortest haircut ever.....
i've always wanted to spike up my hair...haha..AND I FINALLY COULD!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

Listening to : Durarara - Complication
Mood : HUNGRYyyyy....