Cherish your loved ones

Cherish your loved ones...
really now, how much do you understand from this?

Earlier today, i attended a wake of my colleague's mom. Her mom passed away without any pain (thank God), but it was really sudden.
Everything happened so fast....

As we were chatting, it got me thinking......i really can't keep my calm...
i put myself in my colleagues position, and truth be told, i almost shed tears......I couldn't bring myself to imagine what would happen, how i would react, how will my everyday life be should someone in my family be gone, just like that....

The person who pass on isn't the one who suffer the most...it's the ones left behind...
i admit, i'm not a religious person when it comes to these stuffs...i don't know what to believe, i don't know what's real..
All my life, i've believed that when you're gone, you're gone...that's it, it's the end of the road, period, tamat, owari, finish.....(if you get what i mean...)

I came back home, and the first thing i did was to greet my dad (usually i'll just walk pass him and go straight to my room), talk to my mom (or rather, kacau her coz she was busy preparing for her next day's class) and play with my baby MiLO. Suddenly i felt, i should bond closer with my family members and not take them for granted...
(holy....my tears are starting to come out now....*sniff* no, really...my vision is blurry because of the tears in my eyes)

I think back, and when my colleague told me that it was a sudden thing....meaning there were no preparation...mentally and physically...
i really couldn't imagine how i would take it.......

after i related what i heard to my parents, i told them....did you all prepare for the worst? ya i know, it's kinda pantang to talk about these things, but my parents aren't those pantang types..heck, my mom even bought an 'apartment' for herself already. it was hilarious looking at her choosing the 'apartment unit'.....
she went...
' aiyo, if i take this 'unit', i can't see the view la.....canot canot....take here, then i canot see buddha's statue,......' and it goes on....lol
gah..i digressed...

anyway, my mom went on to show me where she kept all the documents....both for my mom and dad's....should anything happen, we'll know what to do, and where to find them...

the bottomline is.......It's not the person who 'left' feels the pain...it's the person left behind..
I love my family really really REALLY much, and i pray to God that they'll live a long and healthy life...

Also, my condolences to my fellow colleague.....i can't say i understand how you feel now, but stay strong.......

To all you peeps out there, cherish your loved ones...come home for dinner, have meals with your family members more often....talk to them, joke with them..spend more time with them..
Life is unpredictable....and there aren't much 10 years in our lives...

I love my family.......really really much.

Listening to : -
Mood : -

CRAZY BITCH DRIVER~~!!!!

yeah, every now and then, there'll be a rant post...usually about what i see when i drove to work..
As usual, drove to work at a normal speed......NKVE's speed limit is usually 110, but during the morning rush hours, you can't possible 'fly' that fast..
so i was on my usual 90.......

upon reaching the exit to subang airport road, there was this crazy bitch of a driver, around her mid 20s, suddenly cut into my lane, with no indication whatsoever...
hello!? we were both travelling aroud 90 - 100 km/h and you sudddenly cut in?
i had to swerve my car to the left, and it almost hit the divider........good thing i wasn't going at 140..else that's it...you guys will have to come see me in the hospital...

That crazy bitch was EXACTLY next to me when she suddenly turned left.....it's either that bitch fucked with her driving instructor in exchange for her driving licensed, or her mom was the one who fucked with the driving instructor.....
There's no way in the world would she get her driving license the official way.....definitely her dad must've slept with the driving instructor (if the instructor is a she) or she / her mom must've pussied her way through to get a license.

THAT'S HOW ACCIDENTS HAPPEN BITCH!!! you don't go switching lanes like your grandfather owned the roads (oh...maybe your grandfather fucked someone too?)
I didn't get her number plate, but it was a spectacled bitch with straight long hair (slightly at the shoulder) driving a black saga (blm).....oh, she had red head rest too..
crazy bitch......seriously, if i had any powers, i would've made her bang straight at a tree or something....
crazy bitches like her should be fucked and thrown into a prostituting den.....
sheeesh.....

Listening to : -
Mood : =_=

Decisions and Choices

hmm....every now and then, you're thrown with a life decision, those that will be the turning point of a certain issue in life.
Yeah, now i'm being thrown with that decision to make....not really yet, but pretty soon i'll need to make a decision of such.

I once saw this sentence ' It's better to have tried something, then to regret not trying at all '...I think it's in one of the many animes that i've seen. can't remember which one though.....
It might be for the best, or could be for the worst....but i believe it's time to make a choice.

OH, on a sidenote, LOL....not gonna do any photoshoots for the next 2 - 3 months. I'm becoming a fatso, and i wanna lose the extra pounds before i start putting on any costumes of mine.
(CNY cookies are EBIL!!!!!)

Listening to : Mika Nakashima - Glamorous Sky
Mood : Sleepy + Cranky = DAMN~!

my way, my style, my ruleZ

OKAyy.....there are some things i gotta clarify before it goes out of hand...
anything happens and it's my head on the chopping block....

So........listen up carefully.....
(especially for those who comes over to my house often)

- Do not enter anyone's room WITHOUT my permission EXCEPT my room (yes, that means my brothers' room, parents, grandaunt, study, anywhere deemed private)
- Do not touch/take anything in another room WITHOUT my permission. There are some things in my room is meant for DISPLAY only, so DO NOT TOUCH IT unless i say otherwise.
- DO NOT...i stress again...DO NOT SIT ON MY BED WITH YOUR LEGS UP.....my bed is my shrine, and i prefer to keep it clean.
- I DO NOT loan, lend, rent my costumes/props/wigs/whatever unless i know you really well (as in i know where to hunt you down if you don't return me LOL). So please, do not come to me and say ' oh, my friend needs costume XYZ for ABC event, can i pinjam yours for her kthxbye'..i'll ask you to go fly a kite.....or, i'll simply churn up a white lie.
- I HATE people hugging me when i walk......don't come and manja - manja with me...i really hate it. It makes me wanna smack you in the face.
- Learn how to read my facial expression...it's really simple really... i'm a talkative person...so when i get really quiet, you guys know what you've done.
- If, in an event, should I happen to lend you stuffs, please take good care of it..don't let me find it lying at the bottom of your car/ floor/ in your dog's kennel.
- For Facebook, if you have nothing nice to say, then just STFU.....really....i dont need your lousy comments.
- I tend to get sarcastic occasionally, and when i do, you know you're in deep shit.
- When i have a conversation, i'll usually look at the other party's face to show respect that i'm listening. If you're talking to me, and i don't look at you, means i'm annoyed with your topic. BUT, occasionally, if i'm busy, i'll let you know i'm listening, but i'll continue to do my work..lol..that's another different thing altogether.
- As i've mentioned, i'm a talkative person....so usually when you ask me A, i'll answer ABCDEFGHIJKL.......but if you ask me A, and i answer B only, meaning i do not want to talk to you anymore aka STFU PRONTO.....go bother someone else......

Yeap...some of the stuffs i mentioned sounds harsh and rude...but i'm a person who can't say NO right at your face. Hopefully you guys will understand what i've listed out and if you've done it before, please....don't do it again, not in front of me........

Thanks!


Listening to : Prince of Tennis - Make You Free
Mood : =_=

Taking up Sewing lessons

i was thinking......should i take up sewing lessons?
i mean, if it were a weekly thing, (weekends) then i suppose it should be ok, seeing that i hardly go out on weekends now....
Maybe i'll just join, and get the basic...how to cut cloth, draw patterns and USE THE SEWING MACHINE?

i wanted to ask my mom's tailor to take me as her apprentice, but unfortunately she is waaayyy too busy with her factory uniform making and taking care of her son.
Moreover, she stays in Subang....like HOMG, traffic jam people??

i've looked up Fashion Design courses, but i dont think i'll have time to follow the classes everyday as i'm a working adult....T^T
So, part time sewing lessons.......anyone for apprenticeship? i need a 'jedi master' to train under....lol.....

Listening to : Prince of Tennis - Make You Free
Mood : =_=

Crimson Cross......a new level (or just plain...bored?)

YUP....last week, me and Tsu kinda chatted over the MSN regarding some website creation for our team....well, it's not that BIG of a team, nor is it any EPICLY WTFBBQAWESOMEPEWPEW team...

it's something we thought we should have since we've been cosplaying together since.......4 years ago? (wait...i really lost count.....)
The first 2 members i would say was me and riko? coz i mean...we've been cosplaying the same series eversince we started our Ahtrun X Lacus pair.....
Then we got tsu to join in, and slowly our team grew into 7 members.....

The team consist of...

hitokiri (me!)
Riko (basically, the mother of the group...LOL)
Tsu
Relyss
Michiru
Xanthe (sister to elle)
Elle (sister to xanthe)

Hmm..come to think of it, you could say we're like the ouran members..LOL!!!

Hitokiri - Tamaki - useless good-for-nothing president
Riko - Kyouya - getting everything right and done, always picking up after useless hito's mistakes
Relyss - Haruhi - Innocent, but sometimes gives sarcastic remarks (in which, no ill intention or malice intended)
Tsu - HITACHIN TWINS!!!! (with Michiru.......crazy duo....and is always picking on Hito/tamaki)
Michiru - HITACHIN TWINS!!!!! (with Tsu....same as the above description)
Xanthe - Mori Sempai ( LOL.....the serious, quiet type....and is sister to Elle)
Elle - HONEY Sempai..!! (hmm....not sure if she is a fan of sweets/candies but lol....i believe xanthe always protects her younger sister....XD)

SO THERE......XD

ANYWAY...ok, i digressed..
So, me and tsu kinda came up with having our own team website...it's still in the works now....nothing much is up yet (because yeah....good-for-nothing hito here is still figuring how to navigate around the web)
Will work on it, and maybe put up a connecting link.....

GO OURAN....eh...wait...

GO CRIMSON CROSS~~~!!! XD XD

Listening to : Souji Okita (Hakuouki) - Crimson Rain
Mood : WEEEeeeeEeeee...XD

It's always your mistake...

Once upon a time, there lived a king and his subjects in FELIOBI kingdom. The king's words are always absolute, and one thing that his subjects hated was that the king often sides other countries more than his own.

One day, the king received a necklace from a neighboring country, and that the neighboring country wants the king's nation to add jewels into the necklace, for the king's country is well known for it's craftmanship. HOWEVER, the one criteria for that is that they must NEVER touch the buckle of the necklace.
The king took the necklace, and passed it to one of his subjects, and told that subject that under no matter what circumstances, he should never damage, change nor alter the buckle.....
The subject remembered it and engraved it into his mind...knowing that one little mistake could mean his life.

Thus, the subject began working on the necklace, bearing in mind not to change or alter anything that is on the buckle.

When it was the time to pass back the necklace to the king, the king then questioned the subject..

King : WHY DIDNT YOU CHANGE THE BUCKLE!!? it looks horrendous!!!
Subject : because your highness, you specifically told me not to change or alter anything on the buckle.
King : BUT you should change it!!! it looks horrendous now!
Subject : but your highness.....i only did but what you told me to.
King : I DONT CARE!!!! IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT THAT THE NECKLACE IS SO HORRIBLE LOOKING!

after that, the subject is thrown into the dungeon and forgotten.

OKAYYy......enough of bedtime stories...
so, what should you think the subject should've done. The king's words are absolute, however the king contradicts himself ALWAYS.
If you are the subject, what would you have done?

Well, the situation is as such.....no matter what you do, it's always your fault. Whether or not you change the buckle, the fault is always yours...the mistake is always yours..never the king's.
Well....that's how...life is.....
sad as it may be, life is always unfair.

Listening to : N'SYNC - I Drive Myself Crazy
Mood : mood less........=_=