another obstacle....

well, it looks like i've stumbled upon another obstacle in life.

This month will most probably be one of the hardest months for me. I thought i had everything under control, but it seems that financially, i've made a mistake by paying too much for my credit card bills.

Yes, in case you haven't noticed, my obstacle usually revolves around money.

It's only the 1st of June and here i am, already broke beyond words. I suppose i'll lose some weight this month partially because i have little to none enough to spare myself for food.

I haven't been able to down much food either lately. I have no idea why though.....

My appetite seems to have left me. Everytime i feel hungry, but when i'm at the dinner table, i can't seem to eat.

Mom mentioned something that really ate me up from the inside. Not gonna go into what she said, but it really got me thinking.

I suppose she mentioned that on a whim, but then somehow, i couldn't stop thinking about it. 

oh well, let's hope this month passes by swiftly (i doubt) and July would be a better month?

By the way, i was thinking of letting go of some of my older costumes.

Anyone who wants any costumes of mine (well, i believe my facebook has an archive of my older costumes), do pm me?

NO NO, i'm not retiring....

it's just that, i was thinking of getting some $$$ from the sales.

(yes, i'm so desperate now.....=_=)

Money, thou art so far away.....

I admit, my financial planings suck.

|||OTL

Listening to : BoA - Winter Love

Mood : Depressed *checks bankbook*.........even more depressed....OTL

life, oh life.......

ok, now that i've calmed down.......let me backtrack what happened just now....

Hmmmmmmm........
ok, what i can tell myself.....

life is often intertwined with happiness and frustration, since it is inevitable for these 2, why not look at the bright side of everything, and go by it with optimistic feelings? *notes to self* *takes a deep breath*

It is just like a rope, whereby it has 2 strings, intertwined with each other.......
Eventually the dark clouds will go by, and the sun will shine again....
Since frustration in life is inevitable, i might as well face and conquer it with an optimistic mind...

Leave the past behind, and look towards the future.......
*sun shinning*

Listening to : Mika Nakashima - Sakura
Mood : still, a little cranky, but nothing gintama cant fix..^^

why i hate window displays....

yup, i'm going to blog about my experience when i go window display-ing this time...
It's a real shitty experience i tell you...everytime i go for window display, i'll feel so much hatred, it made lelouch's hatred towards britannia looks so..pfft, petty....

Anyway,
yeah...the dreaded day came, so once again....our department, the EVERYTHING-ALSO-DO department had to head out to pharmacies all over selangor/ kl to display our promotional items, or rather....the pos materials of the month (i think...heck, we weren't told anything! we just had to go out and display..with our 'CREATIVITY'...pfft)

SO,
i'll list this down chronologically according to branches that i went starting from....

ENG ANN branch
overall, this branch is the MOST FRIENDLIEST-EST branch i've been to...ever since i started windows displaying..
well, it could be because my mom's a regular there....she goes there for her vytril and stuffs...
the store assistants were ever so helpful! they helped me clean up the area, wiped the dust off, dispose of the unwanted items, and also helped me shift the things that were in the way.
when i finished, she helped me put back everything (i was actually putting them back myself when she came to me and told me it's ok, she'll do it......)

Moreoever, the store assistants and supervisor all had smiley faces on them....
Overall, i rate this branch a 5 / 5......*thumbs up*

NEXT......

BANGSAR Branch
Getting there was no hassle, thanks to See Wah's GPS....(maigod, it was WAAAAAAAAY better than kenneth's GPS...this one was straightforward....LOL)
And then, parking wasn't that bad either...somehow i got lucky with parkings today...(all my parkings were kinda near to the outlets)
This branch....well......not much of a comment..somehow starting from this branch, all i got was black faces from the store assistants....i mean, WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO? DID I KILL YOUR DOG OR SUMTHING? WHY DO YOU GLARE (note, i used the word GLARE) at me when i told you i'm coming for the windows' display?
well, AT LEAST they did help me clean up the boxes from the previous company who displayed there...
I'd rate it a 3/5.....wait...make that 2.5/5......

NEXT, we head out to.....

DESA SRI HARTAMAS branch
MY GOD when i saw the display area for this, i was ever so thankful i lost weight...
seriously, if i were at my prime weight (lol..back in form 5, i weighed a whopping 90kg..haha)
i think i'd be stuck in between the glass and the wall..
IT WAS SO SMALL...it was in fact the smallest display area i've ever seen..!!!
(Glomac's branch look SO BIG compared to this....=_=)
i pulled a muscle around my neck area while displaying this......it was a light pull, so nothing much to worry about...
Though, i'd say this branch is kinda friendly......(well, DUH, they were both chinese ladies!)
So, i kinda settled this branch kinda fast....I COULDN'T DO MUCH! i CAN'T FIT INTO THE DISPLAY AREA FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE!!!!!!
OH...one thing about this branch...i had to 'patah balik' to this branch because when i almost turned out into the highway, i realized......I LEFT THE TOOLBOX BEHIND!!!!
i had to make an illegal U Turn, and when i headed back, i saw DBKL giving autographs to cars..LOL.......

So that's that....no hassle with parkings and directions......parking for this branch was the BEST....it was directly IN FRONT OF the store! LOL....(and there was a KFC opposite it....but i refrained myself.....it was lunch time too....T^T)
i'd rate this branch a 3/5......would have given it a 4 if it werent for the SMALL DISPLAY AREA.....and the pulling of my neck muscle....=_=

NEXT STOP.....
SS15 Subang
okay, before i say anything about this branch...let me summarize this branch in 2 words.....
FUCKED-UP BRANCH (lol....wait...this is 3 words? LOL)
yup, it's a fucked up branch.....parking was a catastrophe, and the people who worked in that branch all had the my-mom/husband-just-died-this-morning look.... WTF? you're working in retails, you're trying to sell your product....the least you could do is smile!..
THEN, this pharmacies...Miss LEE...(yes, i remembered her name)
she was transferred from Subang Caring to this branch.....(yes, i even know that, because i saw her in Caring last year)
she is one of the MOST FUCKED UP STUCK UP pharmacies EVER....
Hey, it doesn't mean that you're a pharmacies meaning you're worth more than me...
Human dignity does not vary.....so give a little sense of respect will you? bitch....

AND, the store assistants, whoa.....when i approached them and told them i'm here for the display, one of them told me...

'I THOUGHT IT'S TOMORRoW? can you come back tomorrow for the display'
..........................seriously, at that time, i wanted to shout at her...

but no...i regained my composure and told her...
' The Sales Rep has already informed you all, didn't she? My boss told me to come for the display today. Why is it that other branches gave me the green light, but your branch is asking me to come back tomorrow?'

She looked at her colleague, and then told me to ask the pharmacist..
fine, i'll go look for MISS LEE.....and i came back telling the store assistant....SHE SAID I COULD DISPLAY..
(pfft, talk about bad communication....)
fine, i displayed...blablabla.....and then, all of a sudden, there were 2 - 3 store assistants, trying to look out whether i'll steal stuffs....BAH, come on, would i steal sweets? i wouldn't be that stupid.....if i were to steal, i'd be looking at the cash register....DUH...

So, i got so pissed with this branch, i just removed all the old display, and left it aside....
i thought, HECK CARES...it's your branch...you clean it....
this branch, i'll rate it -5/5...YES...there is a negative in front of the 5....
WORST BRANCH EVER......WORST!!!!!!

parking, well....i had to DOUBLE PARK...this place is a mess.....good thing 5 minutes later i managed to get a parking...(only because my car was blocking that car)

TAIPAN branch
Well, after all that mental volcanic eruption, at least this branch was more civilized...
parking wasn't that hard...i had to wait in the car for a while, but not long after that (around 3 mins i guess) a car reversed and i parked across the store.....kinda near too...
This branch's display area was kinda ok.....not too big, not too small....just right for the pos materials i had...
I was fuming when i reached this branch, but thank god Riko called me that time and i had a chat with her...
well, i couldn't carry on with my displaying because the aunties were standing there, and i couldn't access that area
QUESTION : how long do you need to pay an item?
ANSWER : the auntie took a full 20 minutes to pay her stuffs.....and i was stalled 20minutes there because of that.....she was standing RIGHT AT THE DISPLAY AREA, and i told her excuse me so many times, even i got annoyed...
ratings for this branch?
3/5........wait...make that 2.5/5.......
(because i was hungry that time....T^T)

USJ 2/2c branch
OKAY, the final branch......was kinda glad that all the nightmare was over.......NOT!!!!
this display area was so small, i think it could rival GLOMAC's.....once again, i thank god that i lost weight....else, i think i'll have a hard time displaying in this branch.
MOREVER, it was so FREAKING hot.......the aircond was blowing out hot air, and i was standing right under the aircond......imagine...=_=...hot, dry air was blowing at you when you're moving in a confined space trying to beautify the area. one word for this....TORTURE!

OKAY, finally finished displaying...what do i do with the previous display boxes? yup, i told the girl there that the boxes are there...so you guys know what to do with it..
omaigod.....my blood pressure shot up when that girl answered me she dunno..
here's how the conversation sounded...
me : Ok, i'm done already. The boxes from the previous display are there....i suppose you guys know what to do with it rite?
girl : EH....i dunno....
me : but i'm not responsible for those boxes....
girl : i really dunno la (in a rude tone), you go and ask the store assistant at the back. i'm new here
me : *stare at her* .........

before she muttured another word, i stormed into the store, and asked the supervisor...
then, i treated that girl as if she is invincible......when i walked off, i just notified the supervisor and didn't even glanced at the girl.
i mean, HELLLOOO? it's your store....it's your rubbish, you don't expect me to clean it for you...
rating, another -5/5.....
well, at least the pharmacist here is nice......ok, for that...i'll rate it a -4/5....there...justice done..

*** EXTRA NOTE ***
most of the branches are manned by MAH CHANS....(email me or pm me if you wanna know what it means)
the reason why they looked so paria is because of those mah chans...they can never progress because of their mindset.......always protected, always being lazy, and have no sense of urgency.
This is why our country are plunging into a destructive state. It's because of these mah chans!
Look at the rest of the world, where there are no MAH CHANs, they prosper so much faster than us.......
and most often than not, these mah chans carry the my-mom/husband-just-died looks on their faces....GOSH, it made me wanted to slap them....

*** Another extra note ***
well, why i hate window display, sidestory
yup, why i hate it? you see.....i'm a degree holder...i graduated with a Bachelor's degree. But, we were bestowed upon treatment that are not equivalent to our qualifications. Me and my colleagues well, we are often looked down when we go for these jobs. It's a saddening thing, don't you think?

ALL IN ALL, i'm glad this is over...let's hope the next windows display is next year....
*prays*

Listening to : Tackey & Tsubasa - Mirai Koukai
Mood : Cranky...i hate windows display....

Fucking prank calls....

Fuck, i've been yawning none stop since morning, and it's because i received a fucking prank call at around 5am in the morning..

The number was +966598882920 and after much googling around, i found out that the number is calling from SAUDI ARABIA..

i was like..WTF?! those people have nothing else better to do than to call people at dawn!?

crazy son of a bitches......moreover, i received the call TWICE....i shut the call the first time....and then about 5 mins later, the phone rang again...

fucking assholes....i hope those bastards rot in hell with their screwed up minds.

crazy asshole dick suckers......

AND NOTE TO YOU ALL OUT THERE

DO NOT GIVE OUT MY NUMBER TO ANYONE UNLESS I PERMIT YOU TO DO SO

i don't want stalkers and crazy minded assholes giving me calls and sms-es at an unearthly hour of the night.

I have already retired from being a vampire, so i am sleeping at normal times now.....

Listening to : Kajiura Yuki - Daydream

Mood : pissed....stupid arabian dicksucker...

Losing weight......is one of the most difficult things in life...

One of the hardest things in life i've faced is...yeah, losing weight.

Yes, i know i've come a long way.....losing 20kgs and dropping almost 10 inches off my jeans size is kinda amazing now that i think about it, but still....there are the times when you feel it's just not enough...

I've been on the plateau graph for quite some time now, and i'm beginning to feel frustrated and disappointed.

Why is it that the rest could easily shed their fats while i struggle to do so?

No, i am not eating all those junks, nor am i dieting in an extreme way..

i believe my friends and colleagues know what i eat and i'm eating like a normal human being...not too much, and not too little...

so i guess it's not my food.

I exercise a whole lot too.....i mean, i run 5 to 6 km on the threadmill almost everyday, and row 1.3km on the boat machine too..

I also do 100 sit ups and a whole lotta other resistance machine too..

Why is it that other people lose weight that easily, but not me?

frustrated much.....><;;;

Listening to : Gravitation - Tearless

Mood : Frustrated....

Random is as random does~~~XD

LOL...I WANNA COSPLAY RAITO (all of a sudden..LOL)

i dunno why..hahaha...

told you it was random...haha...

OHh....also...

i read this the other day and i couldn't stop laughing.....LOL

kagura is sooooo cute..!!

especially in epi 41...when she was still young....

Listening to : some chinese song...dunno the name..haha...

Mood : ............. XD!

EWWwwww.....disgusting!!!! ><

lol...this is kinda random...

You see, i was on my way to work today on the NKVE highway....

well, it's a highway rite? so usually during rush hours, you'll see cars zooming by like there's no tomorrow...

There was this one Toyota Vios.....

i was tailgating her because she was on the fast lane, but she was moving at only 80km/h...(yeah, stupid road hoggers)

so i tailgated her until she moved to the center lane..

Obviously, any normal human reaction was to turn and look how the stupid road hogger looked like..

I saw her fingers at her face, and OMAIGOD...she was happily digging a tunnel in her nose!

i really salute her....sheesh...she could dig her nose, and hog the entire fast lane......(inconsiderate much!)

it was disgusting and well.....somewhat hilarious....there were so many other cars that were 'stuck' behind her and i believe everyone saw what she did in that car...

well, now we know....

NOSE DIGGERS HOG UP THE FAST LANE...!!!!

Listening to : Hakuouki Shinsengumi Kitan - Haruri

Mood : WEEee..Friday!! XD

hitochan @ cosplay meme!

FINALLY....after procrastinating for so long, i finally did a cosplay meme..haha...
well, i thought it'd be fun because since i've been cosplaying for so long (sheesh, and still so noob *digs a hole and hides*) i was thinking, HMmmm.....WHY NOT?

but...i didnt know it took me SO FREAKING LONG to make one.....
*wipes sweat*

Oh well.....maybe in 5 years time i'll make another one? haha...

Listening to : Hakuouki Shinsengumi Kitan - 出逢いは…早春
Mood : =w=

May the 4th be with you....

LOL...yup, i heard the 2 clowns on the radio station saying that this morning...

JJ and Ean on the Hitz.fm morning crew are 2 of the most creative people on earth!

A simple date and they can easily associate it with something so great..LOL..

MAY THE 4th BE WIth YOU..!!!

ANYWAY.......

what i wanna say after this has nothing whatsoever to do with the 4th of may, rather...it has more to do with the 'force'...

Lately, i've noticed that my weight has not gone down, nor have i gone smaller sideways...

i've tried whatever possible, and i believe i'm exercising right...

i hit the gym almost everyday after work, and i run 5km everyday on the treadmill and row the boat for another 1.3 km.....

so i believe all the calories are burnt off there..but how come my appearance isn't shrinking?

Is it the food that i'm taking?

i've even cut down on coffee now because i fear the sugar is the one keeping me a on plateau scale. 

why can't i lose weight like that of the Biggest Loser?

maybe i should start to be anorexic a little. Extremities are sometimes good.....

Listening to : Sid - Uso

Mood : depressed....i hate my weight...i want liposuction...=_=