F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I remember i used to be so close to one of them. We practically grew up together. We used to spend weekends together, building fake houses made of manila card and make believe that we were millionaires (we have our own jets and limousine)

Then we became bestest buddies in school, and college.
We did a lot of crazy stuffs, it was as if she was my twin sister.
A lot of people even thought she was me, and i was her.
In short, we were the bestest best buddies in the world.

Soon, we went our separate ways. (i went to a different university for my degree and she, hers)
With friends influence in her university, somehow we drifted further and further apart.
We even argued because she was forcing some of her religious views down my throat.
(i'm not a very religious person, but i do believe in the big guys up there)

So with that, the arguement was never solved and we just let things be.
Slowly, but surely, we started to have less things to talk about.
She rarely comments on my fb anymore, and i rarely see her post anymore. (maybe she listed me under 'acquaintance'...well, i don't know)

I have no idea how this happened, but time eventually ate up all that we had together.
Ok, up till here... you might think 'yo gurl stop looking into the past. Leave that gurl and carry on!'

yeah well...it didn't really made much difference in my life. I've met crazier friends, did even more extreme stuffs and had friends that became so close, we could talk about basically ANYTHING!


it's just that, i feel it's a very sad thing to lose a friend of more than 10 years. Just like that!
Now, i don't even know where she is, i don't even know if she is married, i don't even know what she likes, heck~ i don't even know how she looks like now!

There were a few times a group of friends had a road trip, but sadly enough...yours truly wasn't invited.
I used to remember last time when we had any trips/outings...it's usually me the one planning and inviting everyone.
But now when they planned, they conveniently left me out.

Ya, well....it doesn't bother me much, but when i first found out, i was hurt. I was hurt so bad i even wondered what i did wrong.
Yeah, they were a couple of times i said i was busy/i couldn't make it for a particular outing (due to work...i was the first to start work among them) but that doesn't mean they could just shut me out like that.

I eventually got tired and numb on what they were doing.
I don't even go to some of their weddings anymore (OH~ CONVENIENTLY, THEY REMEMBER YOU WHEN IT'S THEIR WEDDINGS)
I don't even join them for CNY open house visitings anymore.

i just feel that, well, If they don't value my presence, why should i bother?
MY REAL FRIENDS, MY REAL SISTERS are the ones that value my presence.
MY REAL FRIENDS would go 'WE HAVE TO INVITE hito for his, we have to invite susien for this, WHERE IS SUSU?!'

So yeah i guess that's what they say.
Live and let live.
You lose this part, but you gain an even better one.
Friends come and go.
True friends stay with you.

I love my buddies~