who said it doesn't hurt?!?!!?

After months and months of procrastination, i finally swallowed my guts and went to the dentist.
Of course, i still went with my dad. haha...

I keep hearing from people
'oh, it doenst hurt'.....'it's ok, just an ant bite'...

well, it's either your ant is a puny sized ant, or you pain receptors are all dead, coz i can ensure you..

IT HURTS A WHOLE DAMN LOT!!!!!

okay, back to how i got myself into this shit..

At the age of 4, being the mischeivious kid that i was, i was running up and down the stairs...
of course, a kid's balance isn't THAT well, so i slipped, fell, and bumped my tooth on the side of the stairs.

That particular tooth chipped off, and it never bothered me eversince.

AFTER 20 years, it's like....oh, why not i give the owner some pain...
*initiates pain button*

so yeah, it started giving me slight problems...and started to turn black....
THEN, it chipped off even further......leaving only the root and exposed nerves.

I had no choice but to extract it as the first dentist i went to said that there were no other choices except to extract it.
That time, i had wanted to extract the tooth, but then the dentist advised that it's better to only do 1 thing at the time (i did fillings and washed my teeth that time)

omg, good thing i listened to her, otherwise i wouldn't have any sides of the mouth to eat at all..!

AND SO, now ......it's lunch time...my tummy is grumbling, but my tooth hurts. (post extraction syndrome)...

i dun dare to put anything into my mouth..heck , i dun even dare to drink water...

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW?!?!?!!?

this is how my misearable face looks like after extraction......

Listening to : Big Bang- Haru Haru 하루하루 (Acoustic Version)

Mood : =____________=

Workout and Motivation

Workout and Motivation

How often do you workout?
- Almost everyday (except 'that' particular time of the month)

How long do you workout?
- hmm..depends....if i have a run or marathon coming up, i would run more in the gym. Most probably 1 hour or so to build stamina.
- Also, if there's a cosplay event or photoshoot, will most probably put in an extra 30 mins.

Where do you workout?
- Usually i'll hit Fitness First after work during the weekdays. (except wednesday, that's the time i play badminton with my colleagues)

What do you do when you workout? (run, cycle, resistance, etc)
- I run most of the time. Occasionally i row the boat (there's this boat rowing machine in the gym) and i cycle (my very own RPM with my anime songs.... :D)

What is your motivation?
- Cosplay.......that's the one and sole purpose i'm putting in so much during gym. Works wonders!

What is the hardest part of working out?
- hmmm....getting started? the first 3 minutes into the run, you'll feel like....meh, can i stop now? Maybe coz the muscles are just being lazy? but then when i hit the 6th or 7th minute, i start to hasten up my pace......sometimes completing 10km in a run without even knowing it...haha...

Are you the talkative type?
- errr....not exactly. I usually shun myself out of the environment during my workout period. 2 earphones stuffed into my ears. That's all i can hear. Which is why, i prefer to hit the gym alone. I do go with friends, but then they know my routine. ^^

Any favourite quote for working out?
- Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what gets you going. You've gotta turn working out into a habit. Just having motivation is not enough.

Well, i guess that's that for my workout Q and A.
I saw this from myfitnesspal, and thought it's a good way to make myself realize certain goals when i workout.
Hope this helps you guys out there....XD

Listening to : Nana - A little Pain
Mood : XD

Whoever wins, we lose.....

" Whoever wins, we lose "
...i wonder if anyone remembers this tagline?

it may not sound EXACTLY 100% correct, but if memory serves me right, it's taken from the ever famous movie 'Alien vs Predator '  a few years back...

ANNNNNNNNNNND, that's exactly what's happening in my life now.
My brothers...elder and younger ones are at war for the internet connection now.
Malaysia doesn't really have a very stable, or rather......GOOD internet connection to begin with....
(oh HK how i miss you so.....your internet connection is oh-so-awesome!)

SO here's what happened....
My younger bro downloaded DOTA 2 a few months back, and that's when the internet wars began.
All these while, my sister-in-law and my brother usually streams on youtube for songs...(as to why they don't wanna download them and play them in itunes, i couldn't understand why....)

and with the recent DOTA downloaded, we're all forbidden to do what we usually do...all for his highness..
ME, being the innocent one caught in between, have to listen to both side rant about how unfair life is, how mom dots the younger one, how the older one only listens to his wife, blablabla...you get the drill...

HELLO!?? i haven't voiced out about FAIR here ok...
who's the one being the slave of the house all these while?
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THE FAMILY NEEDED MANLY DUTIES?!?!
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THERE WERE WATER ISSUES WITH THE TANK ON THE ROOF?!?!
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THERE WERE ELECTRICITY WOES?!?!
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THERE WERE VEHICLE PROBLEMS!?!?

nope...all those were all me...
and when i was at my most lethargic moments, i have to do all these....
(period, tired, sprained ankle, muscle cramp....nah, all non valid excuses)

SO, my brothers have the nerve to rant about how my parents were being unfair to them..
the next time they say that, i'm going to just say

HELLO PAMPERED BRATS!!!! YOU HAVE GRANDMA AND PARENTS' PAMPER...
THE MIDDLE ONE GETS SHIT..!!! WHAT I HAVE NOW, IS WHAT I WORKED FOR..!!!

One couldn't stay out of the house during tertiery education for more than 2 weeks, one couldn't even stay out AT ALL......both are spoonfed since young....
i stayed out and finished my tertiery education.......it was all myself...i washed my own clothes, cleaned my own room, tidied my own bed..

SO, you both wanna fight...GO AHEAD.....but don't drag me into your nonsensical mess....

GOsh...and i thought men were more open minded..turns out they react worse than girls..!!

Listening to : Granrodeo - Rose Hip - Bullet
Mood : VERY CRANKY!

The Millenium Shoot

Last weekend was an exhausting, but a totally enjoyable one.
You see, me and tsu joined a team of awesome people for a shoot cosplaying from a classic series that is, i would say, kinda well known but underloved...
We all donned our costumes and cosplayed characters from..

'Yu Gi Oh! - Dominoe Battle City Version'

Classic eh? yup....i've always wanted to have a shoot on this series since 2009, when i first got my costume. But i believe not many people were willing to cosplay that series...mainly because of the difficulties of getting the duel disk and also the gravity-defying hairstyles.

I myself went through some headache getting that duel disk.

OH, if you're wondering what's a duel disk....here's how it looks like...

*credits to Fahimi Sparda for pic*

So yeah, 2 years later, i got a message from the organizer of the group asking if i was interested to join their shoot as Kaiba Seto.
I had some troubles during the first shoot, and something popped up last minute which made me have to pull out of the team.

And then once again they decided to have the shoot again, this time with an even more near-complete group, i told myself to clear whatever i have on that day and go for the shoot. It's not everytime you get near-complete group for classic series like this.

So yeah, it was a little bit stressful at first..i didn't really know everyone in the shoot, it was a good thing Tsu joined the shoot as well. At first Riko had wanted to come along too, but the 'royal pain-in-the-ass majesty' colleague of hers had to go and spoil everything by taking leave and blablabla......AND also last minute i believe Riko had some Kursus to attend.

ANYWAY~
Prior to the shoot, i was sooooooooooo worried about the condition of my face. Acne, pimple and all those...ugly spots began to pop out 1 month before the photoshoot date, which really turned me off....I totally had no mood to go into the shoot with that kinda of face condition. So i had to spend money on facial products...from RM15 product, i went all the way to DR.G's facial wash (costed me a hefty RM60) and also some exfoliating mask thingy...i have no idea what those are..
So yeah, condition improved and with proper diet, the marks on the face began to subside ENOUGH for make up to cover.

OKAY~~enough digressing....ON TO THE MILLENIUM SHOOT!

Cast
Yami Yugi - Fahimi Sparda (Organizer)
Jyounochi Katsuya - TsubasaFan aka Reddo Gurin
Kaiba Seto - hitokiri_sien (ME! XD)
Mai Valentine - Hammi Lye
Ryo Bakura - Zheok Kite
Malik Ishtar - Nero Vi Kazama
Dark Magician Girl - Shine Ng
Dark Magician - Prince Siao Wen

Photogs & Helpers (these awesome people behind the lense *salutes*)
Xanthe Yeoh
Elle Yeoh
Shun aka Fritz
Usagi aka Hexlord
Teh Chia Yi
Kazami Shintaro
Gems
Chris
*please forgive me if your name isn't here...do let me know ya? forgive this obasan's memory*

And the end result of the shoot?

Photo credits to Shun


Photo credits to Elle/Xanthe


Photo credits to Elle

So yeah, basically we had massive fun during the shoot, and the weather was kinda merciful on us. (i think most probably because we were shooting at the shaded areas.)
Also, the classrooms were opened with AIRCOND!! so everytime we felt as if we were baking (especially me..=_=) we ran into the room for some cool air.

OHh....did i mention that the wind trolled me? when i was ready for a shot, the wind will be as dead as a leaf....but when i wasn't ready, the wind will be blowing so strong it could bring a tree down. I wanted to get the whoosh whoosh effect, but then we weren't THAT successful in getting it. We had to resort to HUMAN FACTOR, which is, throwing my cape, and then the person had to summersault or backflip so that the camera could get a snapshot of me with my whoosh whoosh cape.

all in all, it was a fun experience shooting with these people. Usagi's lense were AWESOMELY AMAZING!!!! it made me, elle and xanthe felt like WTF WE NEED TO GET THIS LENSE IT'S SO NICE......LOL...

THANK YOU ONCE AGAIN PEOPLE FOR THE WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE. It was a fun and awesome shoot. you guys are all amazing, you guys are superstars...!!!!
oh..btw...before i end, here's troll kaiba...XD

Looking forward to my May shoot now. XD

Listening to : Masato Hijirikawa (Kenichi Suzumura) , Ren Junguji (Junichi Suwabe) - Blue X Prism Heart
Mood : ^^

Be proud of your every being....

Had a nice long chat with See Wah today about what we've been through all these years to get till how we are today..

Since i've changed my working timeslot to 8.30am, i decided to ask See Wah out for a yum cha session at around 6pm @ Upstairs Cafe.
Yeah, i get off work at 5.30pm now, and i realize with that 30 minutes of difference, i manage to do A WHOLE LOTTA STUFFS.....
(saved a lot of time from being stuck in a jam)

ANYWAY~
we basically talked nonsense, ranting on people and lol..a lot of reminiscing.
It's amazing that 2 person, who have nothing in common back in school and college, ended up sharing the same smiles and laughter because of one common thing.....Cosplay.

I've always remembered See Wah as 'The Girl Who Sat In Front'...or 'The Girl Who Is So Ever Studious'....
Now that i think back, yeah...she was really the studious type.
and she has always known me as 'The Girl Who Makes Lots Of Noise' or 'The Girl Who Always Dissapears After Rehat Time' (yeah, coz i was part of the olahraga team..training starts after rehat LOL)

So yeah, there were a lot of laughters....there was this one particular incident regarding our Sejarah teacher.
I was called to answer something written on the board. The thing was, i was sitting at the back end of the class, and the sentence that was written on the board was SOOOOOOOOOO TINY that even she had trouble reading it even sitting in front.

But i managed to read the thing and gave a correct answer for that question.
she then said everyone clapped because i managed to read that tiny writting..
What puzzled me wasn't my eyesight......it was....
WTF I MANAGED TO ANSWER A QUESTION THROWN AT ME?!?!?!?!? HALLELUYAH~~!!!!!! *throws confetti* what acheivement i have made..!!!!!!

Then, on the way driving back, i began to think back on my schooling days.
i was never the studious type, books weren't my ally (except Comics and Manga - used to smuggle them to class to read..LOL!)
I was the average student in class with some Cs and Ds and occasionally Fs..LOL!!
BUT HECK, i don't care...because i'm proud of what i've become now.

It's the time in life that couldn't be retrieved back no matter what you do. I enjoyed my schooling days, my college days. Skipping classes was a norm to me, it's the little rebelliousness that makes everything enjoyable in college, no?

It's not all about the As and A1s or all that that matters to me.
I'm a designer now, and i'm proud of it.
I am what i am now BECAUSE i was what i was last time.
It's the road that i've travelled last time that lead me to who i am now.

I was a fat girl...like DAMN FREAKING FAT girl last time. I still remembered when i went to Sunway Lagoon, on that slide, the float had difficulties moving forward, and the staff there mentioned

'Ah Moi, you terlalu berat la!'.....(translation : Girl, You are too heavy!)

yeah, that hurt my feelings a lot. To a thin person, maybe that is just a plain sentence with no malice...but to me that time, it hurt me....a lot...like thousands and thousands of needles piercing through me, and the ashamed look i have when he mentioned that. But, of course, i laughed it off and took it as a joke. But in actual, it was painful.
Then there were those that laughed at me when i ran slow, when i clumsily fell down during PE classes and what nots.
Yeah well...look at me now..

I'm a designer, I'm a cosplayer, I'm a runner, I play badminton and I am a frequent gym go-er.

* Below sentences are directed to those that have laughed at this fat girl, or labelled me weird *
Tell me now, how many of you manage to run 12.3km without stopping and finishing that distance in a little bit more than 1 hour?
How many of you have the guts to wear unique and special looking outfits (back then, Cosplay was deemed as WEIRD PEOPLE WEARING FUNNY LOOKING COSTUMES aka CRAZY PEOPLE)
How many of you know how to play badminton, and have the stamina to play 2 hours straight?
How many of you go to gym and spend at least 2 hours there?

Most people often thought that
'Oh, that fat girl...she can't do nuts. She can't run more than 30mins straight.'
'Oh that fat girl, nah...she looks like a walking burger'
'Oh, that fat girl...well, she'll forever stay like that'
'Oi you so fat, move aside!'

Well, all i can say is..Thank you very much.
I can't do nuts? well...Watch Me.

I've done more things in life than you have ever done. I may not be the smartest in class, I may not have straight A's, I may not know that many scientific terms like others..but all those aren't important.
A's are just alphabets on papers. Smart or not, depends on how to look at it.
I'm happy being me, with family who cares for me, with friends who laughs with me, with colleagues who share with me.

This fat girl has lived her life happy and there will be more happy days for her to come.
Tell me now, how did you live your life so far?

Listening to : Starish - Maji Love 1000%
Mood : ^^

Lost Lamb...

How much you've changed, how you've strayed from the path.
i know not, who you are anymore...

Is it that important to chase after what you're not?
Is it that important to forsake what you've earned?
Where were the days where we experienced what we loved most?
Where was that person what i once knew....

I hate to let it go, i really hate it....
I'm trying to save it, i really am...
Fate brought us together,
Let's not defy what fate has installed for us....

The smiles, no longer genuine..
The laughters, no longer echoes..
What remains, I don't think i wanna know....

Meetings and partings are just moments apart,
but even so,
I wanna treasure them all...

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Suddenly feeling a little.....how to say...
'Artistic'....started writing lyrics.....
Gonna find a tune for this..LOL

Listening to : Olivia - Winter Sleep
Mood : hmmm......

I don't care.....

Be warned that this is another work rant....
about that same colleague.....ok, lets just call him 'James' now...(coz i could forsee that there would be more to rant about him in the near future)

OK, James here......i can't bring myself to understand what is wrong with him. Yesterday, he disrupted my sleep, texting me at 7.30am, telling me he couldn't get up from bed, blablabla....
no seriously...HECK CARES YOU CAN GET OUT OF BED OR NOT....you're supposed to inform YOUR BOSS...not YOUR SENIOR....
and disrupting me at 7.30am? oh....boy...you're lucky that you're on MC...i'm like...Rukawa...DO NOT DISTURB ME FROM MY SLEEP...i'd beat you up if i have to...=_=

THEN, i told him to inform my boss that he is on MC...as a form of respect, you CALL your boss...not TEXT her....i don't care if you can't get up from bed, or your car exploded, or a meteorite landed in your room.....JUST CALL HER....
but NOOOOOOOOooo......you texted her....
so naturally, when you text someone regarding this...you'd expect a reply from the other side to confirm that he or she received the message...as a form of acknowledgement...

NOOOooo.......little 'James' here just left it at that, and didn't care about any replies from my boss..
How come such simple common sense could not be drilled into his mind?????

NEXT, today...he came to office...fair enough....1 day MC and you're back to work...i suppose you should at least do something before you show your 'sickness' rite?
NOOoo......little 'James' came to office, and SPLAT...lay his head on the table and continued sleeping...
JUST WHEN I TOLD HIM TO HAND ME A COUPLE OF THINGS....
and he told me..'OK..I CUBA'....(trans note : it means 'OK, i'll try)

ahem....seriously, i hate it when people tell me ' I'll TRY'.......it means that you're not giving it your all, and that 'I'll TRY' is a form of notification that ' OH, heck cares..i give you i give you la...if i don't, then deal with it...'

NOW, little 'James' is sleeping there like a log....and he has a couple of deadlines today...
i wonder how he is gonna 'vomit' out those deadline...

YES, i may sound mean saying all these....coz i mean, he IS sick..but you don't SHOW that you're sick at 9am in the morning......
His KPI is gonna be so screwed...and he is STILL on probation....

good thing he is not my subordinate.....i'm just helping my senior, who's on maternity leave..and by golly thank god she'll be back next week...
i can't take little 'James' anymore...

Listening to : Gravitation - In The Moonlight
Mood : Cranky =_=