CNY 2014.........meh

GONG XI GONG XI!!!
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Happy CNY~!
well, i know it's kinda late wishing this considering it's already the 10th day into it.
BUT NEVERTHELESS, happy CNY?

For me, CNY 2014....so far has been one of the WORST CNY ever.
So many arguements and displeasure surfaced one after another.
Why? because my parents love to pick petty fights. Those small problems, small mistakes, small everything could be blown out of proportion.
(when i say OUT OF PROPORTION, i literally mean into 'OMFG THE WORLD IS GOING TO END BECAUSE YOU SPILL A DROP OF SOUP ON THE FLOOR' out of proportion.)

I'm pretty glad i haven't taken a single day off for this year's CNY. I hate....(yes, you read right 'HATE') staying at home. I just don't want to listen to my mom nag, my dad shout, my brother's incompetency with helping out at home (in which, resulted into me doing EVERYTHING).
So where do i escape to?........... Office and Gym.

At least i feel more at peace in office and gym. I have understanding close sisterly like colleagues in office, and when i'm in gym, i can listen to my music, sweat it out, all in my own world.
(oh, don't bother contacting me when i'm gym too...i usually have my phone switched to 'airplane mode' when i'm in gym.....)

SO, BACK to nagging and blowing things out of proportions....
YEAh, today, we received news that one of our relatives passed away. My parents weren't at home when i woke up, so naturally i'll ask my grandaunt ' where's mom?'
So she in turn replied me that they went out in the morning after receiving news that my aunt has passed on.

When my parents got home, mom said to dad to tell me what happened.
I made a small mistake by saying 'oh, i already knew'.
mom suddenly went all ballistic and 'OMG HOW YOU KNOW DID YOU SPY ON US YOU TWAT!?!?!'
then i told them my grandaunt notified me of this.... and she suddenly lost it.
She went to my grandaunt and questioned her as to why she told me that my aunt has passed on.
LIKE WTF?! It's just a small matter, you were gonna tell me anyways, why is it such a big deal who told me !?!??!

then my mom went on about how grandaunt can't keep secrets and balblabla....and how she caught her red handed on spilling the beans......
i'm like..WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?!?
IT'S NOT AS IF THE WORLD WOULD END!?
SO SHE TOLD ME ABOUT IT....SO YOU WERENT THE ONE WHO BROKE THE NEWS TO ME....SO WHAT?!?!?!
Don't tell me if it were you telling me about the news, my aunt would revive and come back from the dead... NO RIGHT?!
no damage has been done! so why are you being a bitch about that?!

sometimes i can't understand what my parents are thinking.

Another thing is about the fixed deposit.
The other day, i depositted some money into an FD account. I mean, i'm doing this so that we'll get more returns than sitting there waiting for that measly interest rate of a savings account.
At least i'll get RM50 everymonth rather than a few cents every year.
Called my parents twice to tell them i want to do this ASAP because Feb is a short month, so we can get the interest payout faster.
No answer from them when i called, so i just went ahead and do it.

WHOA, later they all went all 'OMFG WHY DIDNT YOU NOTIFY US I THOUGHT I WAS A SCAM OUR MONEY IS ALL GONE '
yup, blowing things out of proportions again.
I told them to calm down and i deposited it into an FD account. At least it beats having the money sitting there doing nothing.
It was all for goodwill but NOOOOOooo..... they all went WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO ALL THIS WITHOUT INFORMING US WHY WHY WHY WHY......!?!?!?!?!?
(shouting over the phone and all)

I know a lot of you guys will say 'cherish your parents when they are around to nag you'...
really, i do love my parents, but lately they like to blow small petty things out of proportions...i can't seem to understand them anymore......
I know i'm practicing cowardice by running away (staying back in office, going to gym, SOMETIMES even spending an entire day in some coffeeshop just so i don't have to go home)
but i just can't take it anymore!

and now, my dad is pressuring me into changing my car..... And not just any car...
he wants me to change from a MyVi to a Mazda CX5.
dad, i'm not earning 5 figures a month.
And also, if you'd stop being such a spendthrift, i would be able to save up more.

2014, definitely didn't start out well for me.....

FINALLY~~~!!!

AFTER A GOOD 1 YEAR!!!!!!!
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i finally fell sick....like really nose-block-sorethroat-migraine-i-thought-i-am-gonna-die SICK!

And it's not a very good thing. It's so close to CF and i'd rather go to an event not having to sneeze every 2 seconds.
It's kinda annoying having to wipe your nose, and sniffle all over (especially when you have make up on your face...sneezing and wiping your nose...that's not a very good combination with make ups)
It gets in the way of contact lenses too.
i don't wear contact lenses on a daily basis...nor do i wear specs at all..
so sneezing all the time make me tear up easily, and it irritates my eye a lot!

i really hope that i'll get better by thursday latest.
i don't mind falling sick at the end of the event (which is on a sunday).....lol, that way i could apply for MC on the monday...........LOL...

GAh, anyway, CF in a week....
i was supposed to touch up on whatever i can today, but......i went to a friend's hse for a small birthday celebration, and ended up watching Hannibal till 11pm.
so .......yeah....

it's HOBBIT with the Sherlockians tomorrow....
SMAUG~~~~~~~~~~~~ <3 br="">
(and i hate those people who spoil the show....i received to many spoiler tags on FB/messages/watsapp...on purpose...those kind of scumbag friends.....useless perps...)

Listening to : Saiyuki Burial - Shiny Moon
Mood : Sickly *sniffles*

Depressed, but i can't seem to pin point on what issue...

I've been feeling this for almost a month now.
I haven't been telling anyone about this matter. When i hang out with friends /family / colleagues....i can laugh and joke about.

but when i sit in the car and drive alone....i think of stuffs. Recent choices that i've made. Recent worries that surface....
I can't help but to feel helpless in situations like these.

for example, today was an outing with my group of very close friends, but somehow, i haven't been talking or responding much to the conversation as i always had.
I always feel that maybe i should just sit put and shut up. I try not to speak that much, and only listen.
There are lots of things that floats about in my mind, even now.

My relationship with my fellow not-so-close colleagues are getting worse, and my temper isn't getting any better.
When i reach home, i try to dash straight into my room, and keep myself couped up.
I don't watch anime, tv series or read manga or even cosplay that much anymore.

Everyday i worry about stuffs, but i can't seem to pinpoint on what.

Is this a phase everyone has to go through?
The 'maybe i should've done this', or 'maybe i shouldn't be doing that'...
I'm hitting the 30s in a couple of years, so is this like...a mid-life crisis?

Listening to : ------
Mood : worried (i dunno about what)

I am almost, but i'm not

whoa....it's been 5 months since i last updated anything here.
nope, not dead yet... Just that i couldn't find the mood, or inspiration to write anything concerning my life here.

But anyway, i'm here....
There are a few backlogs that i will update in the future.
(stuffs like photoshoots, and my obsession to the more-human-like world...*coughsbenedictcumberbatch*)

ANYWAY~~
today's entry is just another normal post.
Oh, i received flowers in office today. (nope, not sent by any secret admirer...don't think i have any..T^T)
They were 6 lovely Sunflowers sent by my closest colleagues (i could actually call them sisters already...we basically spend our holidays together..heck, even helped them shift stuffs to their new house)
Thanks Giao Giao and Gaisi....i really felt so much better after the cheering up....
Loving the flowers~~~ <3 br="">

It's now on my table, giving me the sunshine i need everyday~

THEN, my journey to the gym was cut short by the disastrous traffic jam. Took me almost 2 hours to reach home. Usually only took me 20 minutes to reach home/gym. Apparently there was a crane that fell on a vehicle somewhere near a construction site. While i'm really sorry for the person who was involved, i'm kinda pissed off by those busybodies that stop and look.
Traffic Jams in Malaysia are usually caused by busybodies like those...not the actual accident victims.
Bunch of losers....

As i reached home, i thought..okay, maybe i'll just watch a couple of Criminal Minds episode and call it a day.
But, the worst news came in.
Received a phone call from my sister-in-law...and she told my mom that....well......let's just say, i am almost, but not just yet. (i know it doesn't make any sense...but meh....don't think i wanna say much anymore.)

Stress from work isn't helping out much either. All that is keeping me going is my Japan Trip in November.
Maybe this is a difficult time for my family, i just wish the powers that be could give us all the strength to pull through.
I may look all cheerful outside (i try to, i need to...my family doensn't need another moody-looking person to dampen the day..not when my bro is all bad mood almost all the time after he started working)

The only place i can rant is well..this blog of mine.
But don't worry, i'm not about to break down. I know i have family, friends and people who care for me. So i'm going to pull through, fight through and be cheerful ol' me again.....
I just need time. (seriously, now...i'm taking Orphenadol...i have no idea what that is, but that's what the doctor prescribed me)

Listening to : Ren Jinguji - FREEDOM
Mood : =___=

Whoever wins, we lose.....

" Whoever wins, we lose "
...i wonder if anyone remembers this tagline?

it may not sound EXACTLY 100% correct, but if memory serves me right, it's taken from the ever famous movie 'Alien vs Predator '  a few years back...

ANNNNNNNNNNND, that's exactly what's happening in my life now.
My brothers...elder and younger ones are at war for the internet connection now.
Malaysia doesn't really have a very stable, or rather......GOOD internet connection to begin with....
(oh HK how i miss you so.....your internet connection is oh-so-awesome!)

SO here's what happened....
My younger bro downloaded DOTA 2 a few months back, and that's when the internet wars began.
All these while, my sister-in-law and my brother usually streams on youtube for songs...(as to why they don't wanna download them and play them in itunes, i couldn't understand why....)

and with the recent DOTA downloaded, we're all forbidden to do what we usually do...all for his highness..
ME, being the innocent one caught in between, have to listen to both side rant about how unfair life is, how mom dots the younger one, how the older one only listens to his wife, blablabla...you get the drill...

HELLO!?? i haven't voiced out about FAIR here ok...
who's the one being the slave of the house all these while?
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THE FAMILY NEEDED MANLY DUTIES?!?!
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THERE WERE WATER ISSUES WITH THE TANK ON THE ROOF?!?!
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THERE WERE ELECTRICITY WOES?!?!
WHERE WERE YOU GUYS WHEN THERE WERE VEHICLE PROBLEMS!?!?

nope...all those were all me...
and when i was at my most lethargic moments, i have to do all these....
(period, tired, sprained ankle, muscle cramp....nah, all non valid excuses)

SO, my brothers have the nerve to rant about how my parents were being unfair to them..
the next time they say that, i'm going to just say

HELLO PAMPERED BRATS!!!! YOU HAVE GRANDMA AND PARENTS' PAMPER...
THE MIDDLE ONE GETS SHIT..!!! WHAT I HAVE NOW, IS WHAT I WORKED FOR..!!!

One couldn't stay out of the house during tertiery education for more than 2 weeks, one couldn't even stay out AT ALL......both are spoonfed since young....
i stayed out and finished my tertiery education.......it was all myself...i washed my own clothes, cleaned my own room, tidied my own bed..

SO, you both wanna fight...GO AHEAD.....but don't drag me into your nonsensical mess....

GOsh...and i thought men were more open minded..turns out they react worse than girls..!!

Listening to : Granrodeo - Rose Hip - Bullet
Mood : VERY CRANKY!

I don't care.....

Be warned that this is another work rant....
about that same colleague.....ok, lets just call him 'James' now...(coz i could forsee that there would be more to rant about him in the near future)

OK, James here......i can't bring myself to understand what is wrong with him. Yesterday, he disrupted my sleep, texting me at 7.30am, telling me he couldn't get up from bed, blablabla....
no seriously...HECK CARES YOU CAN GET OUT OF BED OR NOT....you're supposed to inform YOUR BOSS...not YOUR SENIOR....
and disrupting me at 7.30am? oh....boy...you're lucky that you're on MC...i'm like...Rukawa...DO NOT DISTURB ME FROM MY SLEEP...i'd beat you up if i have to...=_=

THEN, i told him to inform my boss that he is on MC...as a form of respect, you CALL your boss...not TEXT her....i don't care if you can't get up from bed, or your car exploded, or a meteorite landed in your room.....JUST CALL HER....
but NOOOOOOOOooo......you texted her....
so naturally, when you text someone regarding this...you'd expect a reply from the other side to confirm that he or she received the message...as a form of acknowledgement...

NOOOooo.......little 'James' here just left it at that, and didn't care about any replies from my boss..
How come such simple common sense could not be drilled into his mind?????

NEXT, today...he came to office...fair enough....1 day MC and you're back to work...i suppose you should at least do something before you show your 'sickness' rite?
NOOoo......little 'James' came to office, and SPLAT...lay his head on the table and continued sleeping...
JUST WHEN I TOLD HIM TO HAND ME A COUPLE OF THINGS....
and he told me..'OK..I CUBA'....(trans note : it means 'OK, i'll try)

ahem....seriously, i hate it when people tell me ' I'll TRY'.......it means that you're not giving it your all, and that 'I'll TRY' is a form of notification that ' OH, heck cares..i give you i give you la...if i don't, then deal with it...'

NOW, little 'James' is sleeping there like a log....and he has a couple of deadlines today...
i wonder how he is gonna 'vomit' out those deadline...

YES, i may sound mean saying all these....coz i mean, he IS sick..but you don't SHOW that you're sick at 9am in the morning......
His KPI is gonna be so screwed...and he is STILL on probation....

good thing he is not my subordinate.....i'm just helping my senior, who's on maternity leave..and by golly thank god she'll be back next week...
i can't take little 'James' anymore...

Listening to : Gravitation - In The Moonlight
Mood : Cranky =_=

Friday the 13th

I feel whatever that happened today earned it's place in this blog of mine. From broken windscreen to missing earrings to eating rotten food, twas a day to remember.

First of all, what started my day was...my broken windscreen.
Was driving along NKVE heading towards Damansara when suddenly I heard a loud 'pop', and the next thing i know, my left arm was covered with shattered glasses.

(click on pic for wider image)

So started my bad luck streak.

Reached office, met a nooB and sorry excuse for a driver...she parks her car ON the line...I suppose she must've thought that her car was an airplane.

Then, halfway through the day, my earring stud went missing. Couldn't find them anymore...it was as if it fell into a dimensional porthole or something...

FINALLY, I think I must've eaten an expired bun pastry, which resulted in a rather bad tummyache.

So after the day is over, I bled a hefty RM400 to replace my windscreen. But the day became brighter with awesome company...they were there for me when I needed them, they assisted and gave me strength. Thank you so much for everything today. Grace, Jeslyn, Jillian....thank you, and thank you again my dear jie jie's...!!!

Listening to : -
Mood : Sleeeeppyyy

work rant....

well, yeah...recently i was promoted to being a senior, and i tell you, it is no simple task to take on that responsibility. You're no longer the little junior colleague...everyone expects you to be able to perform....

so yeah, i have no qualms on that, in fact...i am well confident that i'm able to pull off whatever task that my boss throw at me.........
all, but one SLIGHT thing that irks me, is to designate task to my junior colleagues.

Currently, my senior colleague is on maternity leave, in which she'll only be back on the 30th of Jan. So most of the task will drop to my table, and to add cili padi to the already spicy nasi lemak, my boss had to go off on an overseas business trip...leaving almost EVERYTHING concerning the department to me..

well, no problems there also...communication has never been a problem for me....
ALL is well, except DESIGNATING jobs to my junior colleagues.
i have 3 junior colleagues.....2 of them i manage to convey the meanings of the task /concept/ jobs to them...

1 more.....that 1 more basically almost made me pull my hair out.....
When i was explaining, the other 2, whom catches things quite fast...paid attention.....but THAT ONE, which does thing a bit TAD slow, was busy staring off at his own machine....

if you can't pick up things as fast, then you should PAY ATTENTION when i'm talking..
If you don't understand ask..!!!
after i finished explaining everything........he waited around 5 minutes,.....then only asked me what was that briefing all about.....

I WENT FUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! you wan me to explain ALL OVER AGAIN!?!??! (which i did...=_=)

WE ARE NOT IN COLLEGE ANYMORE BOY.....GROW UP!!! THIS IS THE WORKING WORLD!!!!
you'd be left behind for being so slow......i know i'm mean, but hey..that's how the world works....

ok..rant over....back to work....=_=

Listening to : Miyano Mamoru - Rain
Mood : =_=...slightly cranky....

Plain SUEY~~~~

'Suey' is a local term used here...it simply means 'UNLUCKY'..
Okay, why did i use this word on me?

For the first time, after getting my drivers license since i turned 17, i finally got my first traffic summon....
And all because i parked at this stupid roadside to get a quick bite before i go for my weekly badminton session.

I was in fact trailing my other colleague's car because i wasn't too familiar with the place there. When they decided to stop at the roadside to park the car, i went 'huh? why park here?' but then decided to follow them anyway.

BY GOLLY was it a wrong choice. when we came back to the car after our pre workout meal, we find a yellowish crappy paper being slipped in between our wipers..
i immediately went FUUUUUUUUUU~~~~!!!!!

Now, i'm not too sure how much the fine for this offense is. I checked online, but some could fetch up to RM300...
WTF? parking illegally and a RM300 fine? WTF IS THIS?!?!?!?

Gah.....suey is SUEY.....
And this month has already been my 'broke' month, with Comic Fiesta and Christmas/ New Year's eve gathering popping up, i think i'm gonna go........sell myself or sumthing...=_=

AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!! KILL ME PLEASE!!!!

Listening to : Hitomi Kuroishi - Stories
Mood : CRANKY....like EXTREMELY CRANKY..!!!

Agitated....MUCH!

RANT POST AHEAD~~~~~

well, i thought my therapy of going for a weekend vacation could mend my lethargy and tiredness of making prop..turns out, well...it did take my mind off certain things, but new things popped up and began messing with my mood..

I was originally ok with everything....but turns out, i think i know why i can't find a suitable partner after all these years..
I think it's because of my.....how do you say it...'compatibility-duration'...
i need time out for almost everything......that being said, i can't spend too long a period of time with selective people....
i dunno how to explain this, but it does get frustrating at times...

NEXT...
it's regarding my costume that's coming from China....
I have no idea what blunder happened, but in the end it was my costume that was left behind in China...
and MY COSTUME is the one that has the most alterations to be made....and THAT PARTICULAR costume had to be the one to be left behind..
talk about SHITTY luck........
and to add to the shitty luck, China had to go on a 1 week holiday...and with that, my costume is being held back another 1 week.....TOPPINg up with the amount of time needed to reach my place, that'd take almost half a month.....

I wouldn't wanna be pointing fingers here..all i could blame is my luck that hasnt' been too good lately...
Maybe i should go pray in the temple or sumthing......

time to sleep....=_= totally lost my mood for prop making......PFft...

Listening to : DN Angel - Caged Bird
Mood : shitty...=_=

Toothaches...worse pain EVER!!!

well, no pain could rival that of a Toothache...
It connects so freaking close to your brains, that it makes you go out of your mind.

I originally wanted to continue completing my prop making during the weekend...but then the pain took whatever i mood i had.
In fact, it took more than my mood...it took a hefty RM230 from me....
the dentist did some filling in and washing of the teeth..

Did it hurt? well, not at that time...because the sedative was doing it's job...
Now that the sedative's effect is gone...

YES..it hurts FUCKING MUCH.....
i feel like killing myself now...
the pain is a real torture....=_=

Listening to : Miyano Mamoru - Nanairo no Compass
Mood : Shitty =_=

Of injuries, 2 broken needles and lots of blood...

Yeah, well..basically that's what i got when i was making my prop...
The harness was a pain in the ass and to push a needle through the cardboard...(i have no idea what the name of the cardboard was..=_=) is a pain in the skin....and i meant that literally pain in the skin..!!

Why? well, you see..
the needles that i was pushing through the board broke, and i couldn't find the broken piece...
In a rational's person mind, obviously the first step after you drop a needle (or a broken piece of it), you immediately search for it on the floor......you wouldn't want to be stepping on it later..

So yeah, i searched around for it, and then i noticed there were drops of blood around the floor...SO DUH?!?!? surely you'll be searching for the source of blood rite? (if it just appeared out of thin air, then i'd be VERY AFRAID..LOL..my room is possessed or something..LOL)

SO, i noticed a slight tinging pain when fling my hands around...OH...i finally found the broken piece of needle..
yup, stuck into my thumb....and the blood all over the floor was FROM MY THUMB..
HOLY COW after the realization, i began to feel immense pain....
(funny rite? when you didn't notice, you don't feel it...once your eyes sees it, it sends the message to your brains and tells you that it SHOULD BE PAINFUL AND YOU SHOULD REACT)
well, yeah...i reacted...jumping around the room, shouting out loud...

The pain was so immense, that even the receptors from my thumb went numb from the shock..
so yeah...i washed the wound (OUCH~!) and wrapped it up with tissue..(no plasters around that time...LOL)
and i continued sewing..
YUP...2nd needle broke again.....good thing this time it didn't pierce through my fingers..otherwise i think i'd have given up making that stupid prop.....

not only that, my other fingers were also pierced with needles in the process of sewing..
GAHHHHHHH....i'm just not gifted with needleworks.....

As for pictures, i figure i'll post them up when i'm done with the skeletal structure.....now the harness is still in a mess....=_=
My phobia of needles is getting stronger...><;;

Listening to : Final Fantasy Piano collections - The Gapra Whitewood
Mood : LAZY......><;;;

Never be too Cocky and Overconfident

Well, recent happenings initiated this entry..
I'm not gonna go into too in depth on this because i'm actually writing this to get it off my chest...

** disclaimer : Somethings in this entry isn't gonna make much sense...basically it's just a rant from me... **

There are several things in life whereby you need to take the fall before actually learning that it really hurts...

I'm not too good with words, but people don't go around blowing their own horns and admitting that they are OVERCONFIDENT.....
And you do not brag about what you've done, rather.....SHOW it that it could be done.

It's a sharing session mind you, not a competition.....
You don't go around calling people kiasu, when you YOURSELF is the biggest kiasu....

Homeworks are meant to be done, and when we do it, you call us kiasu.....
have you ever heard of the word 'INITIATIVE?'
(nah, bet you haven't........)

I pity you....really, i do.....
When it ultimately came to the sharing session, what happened to the overconfidence and cockiness?

Stay humble...no one likes a 'hidung tinggi' person...
It's the basics of being a human being...
Learn it.........

Listening to : Adam Lambert - Whatdaya Want From Me
Mood : Cranky =_=