CNY 2014.........meh

GONG XI GONG XI!!!
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Happy CNY~!
well, i know it's kinda late wishing this considering it's already the 10th day into it.
BUT NEVERTHELESS, happy CNY?

For me, CNY 2014....so far has been one of the WORST CNY ever.
So many arguements and displeasure surfaced one after another.
Why? because my parents love to pick petty fights. Those small problems, small mistakes, small everything could be blown out of proportion.
(when i say OUT OF PROPORTION, i literally mean into 'OMFG THE WORLD IS GOING TO END BECAUSE YOU SPILL A DROP OF SOUP ON THE FLOOR' out of proportion.)

I'm pretty glad i haven't taken a single day off for this year's CNY. I hate....(yes, you read right 'HATE') staying at home. I just don't want to listen to my mom nag, my dad shout, my brother's incompetency with helping out at home (in which, resulted into me doing EVERYTHING).
So where do i escape to?........... Office and Gym.

At least i feel more at peace in office and gym. I have understanding close sisterly like colleagues in office, and when i'm in gym, i can listen to my music, sweat it out, all in my own world.
(oh, don't bother contacting me when i'm gym too...i usually have my phone switched to 'airplane mode' when i'm in gym.....)

SO, BACK to nagging and blowing things out of proportions....
YEAh, today, we received news that one of our relatives passed away. My parents weren't at home when i woke up, so naturally i'll ask my grandaunt ' where's mom?'
So she in turn replied me that they went out in the morning after receiving news that my aunt has passed on.

When my parents got home, mom said to dad to tell me what happened.
I made a small mistake by saying 'oh, i already knew'.
mom suddenly went all ballistic and 'OMG HOW YOU KNOW DID YOU SPY ON US YOU TWAT!?!?!'
then i told them my grandaunt notified me of this.... and she suddenly lost it.
She went to my grandaunt and questioned her as to why she told me that my aunt has passed on.
LIKE WTF?! It's just a small matter, you were gonna tell me anyways, why is it such a big deal who told me !?!??!

then my mom went on about how grandaunt can't keep secrets and balblabla....and how she caught her red handed on spilling the beans......
i'm like..WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?!?
IT'S NOT AS IF THE WORLD WOULD END!?
SO SHE TOLD ME ABOUT IT....SO YOU WERENT THE ONE WHO BROKE THE NEWS TO ME....SO WHAT?!?!?!
Don't tell me if it were you telling me about the news, my aunt would revive and come back from the dead... NO RIGHT?!
no damage has been done! so why are you being a bitch about that?!

sometimes i can't understand what my parents are thinking.

Another thing is about the fixed deposit.
The other day, i depositted some money into an FD account. I mean, i'm doing this so that we'll get more returns than sitting there waiting for that measly interest rate of a savings account.
At least i'll get RM50 everymonth rather than a few cents every year.
Called my parents twice to tell them i want to do this ASAP because Feb is a short month, so we can get the interest payout faster.
No answer from them when i called, so i just went ahead and do it.

WHOA, later they all went all 'OMFG WHY DIDNT YOU NOTIFY US I THOUGHT I WAS A SCAM OUR MONEY IS ALL GONE '
yup, blowing things out of proportions again.
I told them to calm down and i deposited it into an FD account. At least it beats having the money sitting there doing nothing.
It was all for goodwill but NOOOOOooo..... they all went WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO ALL THIS WITHOUT INFORMING US WHY WHY WHY WHY......!?!?!?!?!?
(shouting over the phone and all)

I know a lot of you guys will say 'cherish your parents when they are around to nag you'...
really, i do love my parents, but lately they like to blow small petty things out of proportions...i can't seem to understand them anymore......
I know i'm practicing cowardice by running away (staying back in office, going to gym, SOMETIMES even spending an entire day in some coffeeshop just so i don't have to go home)
but i just can't take it anymore!

and now, my dad is pressuring me into changing my car..... And not just any car...
he wants me to change from a MyVi to a Mazda CX5.
dad, i'm not earning 5 figures a month.
And also, if you'd stop being such a spendthrift, i would be able to save up more.

2014, definitely didn't start out well for me.....

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I remember i used to be so close to one of them. We practically grew up together. We used to spend weekends together, building fake houses made of manila card and make believe that we were millionaires (we have our own jets and limousine)

Then we became bestest buddies in school, and college.
We did a lot of crazy stuffs, it was as if she was my twin sister.
A lot of people even thought she was me, and i was her.
In short, we were the bestest best buddies in the world.

Soon, we went our separate ways. (i went to a different university for my degree and she, hers)
With friends influence in her university, somehow we drifted further and further apart.
We even argued because she was forcing some of her religious views down my throat.
(i'm not a very religious person, but i do believe in the big guys up there)

So with that, the arguement was never solved and we just let things be.
Slowly, but surely, we started to have less things to talk about.
She rarely comments on my fb anymore, and i rarely see her post anymore. (maybe she listed me under 'acquaintance'...well, i don't know)

I have no idea how this happened, but time eventually ate up all that we had together.
Ok, up till here... you might think 'yo gurl stop looking into the past. Leave that gurl and carry on!'

yeah well...it didn't really made much difference in my life. I've met crazier friends, did even more extreme stuffs and had friends that became so close, we could talk about basically ANYTHING!


it's just that, i feel it's a very sad thing to lose a friend of more than 10 years. Just like that!
Now, i don't even know where she is, i don't even know if she is married, i don't even know what she likes, heck~ i don't even know how she looks like now!

There were a few times a group of friends had a road trip, but sadly enough...yours truly wasn't invited.
I used to remember last time when we had any trips/outings...it's usually me the one planning and inviting everyone.
But now when they planned, they conveniently left me out.

Ya, well....it doesn't bother me much, but when i first found out, i was hurt. I was hurt so bad i even wondered what i did wrong.
Yeah, they were a couple of times i said i was busy/i couldn't make it for a particular outing (due to work...i was the first to start work among them) but that doesn't mean they could just shut me out like that.

I eventually got tired and numb on what they were doing.
I don't even go to some of their weddings anymore (OH~ CONVENIENTLY, THEY REMEMBER YOU WHEN IT'S THEIR WEDDINGS)
I don't even join them for CNY open house visitings anymore.

i just feel that, well, If they don't value my presence, why should i bother?
MY REAL FRIENDS, MY REAL SISTERS are the ones that value my presence.
MY REAL FRIENDS would go 'WE HAVE TO INVITE hito for his, we have to invite susien for this, WHERE IS SUSU?!'

So yeah i guess that's what they say.
Live and let live.
You lose this part, but you gain an even better one.
Friends come and go.
True friends stay with you.

I love my buddies~

FINALLY~~~!!!

AFTER A GOOD 1 YEAR!!!!!!!
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i finally fell sick....like really nose-block-sorethroat-migraine-i-thought-i-am-gonna-die SICK!

And it's not a very good thing. It's so close to CF and i'd rather go to an event not having to sneeze every 2 seconds.
It's kinda annoying having to wipe your nose, and sniffle all over (especially when you have make up on your face...sneezing and wiping your nose...that's not a very good combination with make ups)
It gets in the way of contact lenses too.
i don't wear contact lenses on a daily basis...nor do i wear specs at all..
so sneezing all the time make me tear up easily, and it irritates my eye a lot!

i really hope that i'll get better by thursday latest.
i don't mind falling sick at the end of the event (which is on a sunday).....lol, that way i could apply for MC on the monday...........LOL...

GAh, anyway, CF in a week....
i was supposed to touch up on whatever i can today, but......i went to a friend's hse for a small birthday celebration, and ended up watching Hannibal till 11pm.
so .......yeah....

it's HOBBIT with the Sherlockians tomorrow....
SMAUG~~~~~~~~~~~~ <3 br="">
(and i hate those people who spoil the show....i received to many spoiler tags on FB/messages/watsapp...on purpose...those kind of scumbag friends.....useless perps...)

Listening to : Saiyuki Burial - Shiny Moon
Mood : Sickly *sniffles*

Travels, Trips and YOLO~

It's been a while since i last wrote anything here.

I finally figured out why.
My office machined couldn't support the latest javascript. The old junk's OS system is waaaaaaaaay too old to do anything anymore!
(and my boss, wants to wait till next year because of the department budget thingy...=_=)

I can always update my blog at home, but the thing is, when i reach home, i see my bed....and that's it!
i'm too lazy to write anything anymore!

LOL...anyway~~~
i think i've gotta start writing again. My english is slowly going down the drain and deteriorating!

I'm not gonna ramble on my cosplaying experience over the year. You can see that in my DeviantArt journal (if anyone is even interested in it....)

One of the best things that have happened in 2013 so far is my Japan trip~!
It was an awesome experience and yes, i've already planned and booked my flight for next year's Japan trip.
Next year's trip is with my BRO~!
finally i have a trip with my brother~~~!! it's been a while since we wanted to go anywhere, and EVERYTIME we planned a trip, SOMETHING is bound to pop up!
so this time, we just went on a YOLO booking spree..

funny thing was, the trip was not planned for AT ALL...
i just happen to remember that AirAsia had a 'free seat' promotion going on, and i just tried clicking into the website.
Turns out  i managed to get RM759 all inclusive (luggage, meals, everything!) return flight!
I turned and asked my bro whether he wants to go on a YOLO trip with me next year...
he went..OK..YOLO..ONZ!

the next thing that happened, the booking itinerary has been printed out.
so i'm so looking forward to next year's trip.
April is Taiwan, MAAAAYYBBEE September is Melbourne (parents wanted it) and December JAPAN~~~!!

oh, parents still have no idea me and my bro booked the flight..LOL..
my bro is trying to trick my parents into winter clothing shopping with him. (coz he does not have a single coat! the ones i have are either girlish, or too small for him.... my dad's one is too AH PEK for him...LOL)
The method he tried to trick is rather funny..
There was one occasion whereby it was raining outside, and the house inside had air conditioning on turbo.
he went 'IT IS SO COLD..WE NEED TO GO BUY WINTER COATS!'

i was laughing non stop at that statement. LOL..

Yay for travelling, NAY for money...... T^T
well, you've gotta travel when you're young...no?

Listening to : Howie D feat Shirota Yuu - If I Say
Mood : Meh~~~

Depressed, but i can't seem to pin point on what issue...

I've been feeling this for almost a month now.
I haven't been telling anyone about this matter. When i hang out with friends /family / colleagues....i can laugh and joke about.

but when i sit in the car and drive alone....i think of stuffs. Recent choices that i've made. Recent worries that surface....
I can't help but to feel helpless in situations like these.

for example, today was an outing with my group of very close friends, but somehow, i haven't been talking or responding much to the conversation as i always had.
I always feel that maybe i should just sit put and shut up. I try not to speak that much, and only listen.
There are lots of things that floats about in my mind, even now.

My relationship with my fellow not-so-close colleagues are getting worse, and my temper isn't getting any better.
When i reach home, i try to dash straight into my room, and keep myself couped up.
I don't watch anime, tv series or read manga or even cosplay that much anymore.

Everyday i worry about stuffs, but i can't seem to pinpoint on what.

Is this a phase everyone has to go through?
The 'maybe i should've done this', or 'maybe i shouldn't be doing that'...
I'm hitting the 30s in a couple of years, so is this like...a mid-life crisis?

Listening to : ------
Mood : worried (i dunno about what)

ALLADIN RUN 2013 ~~ AGAIN!

While everyone was sleeping, OR not asleep yet this morning (1st June), i woke up at 4am, to prepare for my annual Run, the ALLADDIN RUN, organised by DKSH.
(i have no idea if the name now is pronounced as ALADDIN, or ALL-ADD-IN....lol, a few of my friends were debating on the name after i posted up the running tee. but oh well....XD)

I gone on a hiatus on running mainly because my running partner shifted and transferred back to Johor Bahru.  Till now i've not found any running partner. Also, maybe age is catching up (LOL!) because i despise morning runs. I can never get enough sleep (even if i went to bed at 8pm the night before). i mean, come on~~~ waking up 4am on a weekend!? that's blasphemy~~~!!!!!

AHEM, but anyway...today's run was a different one. With only 601 participants, i could see a very clear and huge chance of winning top 3 in the run. I'd imagine that if i run consistently at my pace and finish 5km in less than 30 mins should suffice. It's enough, but not merely enough to beat the winner for the Female Open.

By the way.... I came in 2nd ^_^

I clocked in at 28mins (official time) for the 5km run, but the winner clocked in at 23 mins. I was neck-in-neck with this lady at one point of the run. We overtook each other a couple of times, but halfway through the run, i had abdominal pains again....which resulted me in slowing down and she pulling further away.

When she was approximately 25 meters or so in front of me, i knew it was too huge a gap to catch up. Unless she tripped and fell, or i started sprinting like a mad Olympic runner, i knew i wouldn't be able to catch up anymore.

Thus, i remained consistent at my current pace, and finally finished 2nd in my category.

Although i lost to the winner, i'm relatively happy because the time i clocked in beat my previous year's record (which was, 32mins for 5km). It was a significant improvement IMHO.

ALSO, what i was really delighted about was that i also beat the previous year's winner's runner and record. That girl came in 3rd, approximately 1min and a half behind me.

At least i manage to retrieve some consolation from waking up so damn early on a Saturday (which was, by the way a public holiday because it was the Agong's Birthday)

Got myself an extra pocket money of RM200~!!
(it's either going into my funds to get an iPad Mini, or my Japan trip funds)
i remember last year my winnings (which was also RM200) went to my Comic Fiesta costume funds. I was saying whether or not i cosplay, depends on whether or not i won any 'sponsorship' from the run. LOL

So yeah, here's what i got in my goodiebag this year~~!!

Quite a lot of stuffs. But originally i didn't get this bag. It was a funny thing. The MOST IMPORTANT goodie to me was the Famous Amos cookie. And the first bag i got HAD NO COOKIE IN IT!!

i immediately went to the officials (in charge of goodie bag) and said to her..

' THERE'S NO COOKIE IN THIS BAG!! THAT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT ELEMENT IN THE GOODIE BAG!!! CAN I CHANGE?!!??!?!?'

Obviously she let me change my goodie bag, else i would've thrown some kiddie tantrum..lol! COOKIES ARE IMPORTANT OKAY?!?!?!

So yeah, here's how i look after my 5km run.

Super RED~~~!! can feel all the blood gushing towards my head. LOL!!

and, MiLO, my baby, decided to snag the tag from me...

Beaming with pride

I'm not too sure whether i wana join this again next year. If i don't have any friends/colleagues joining i might not want to anymore. But we'll see.....who knows, i might need the money? XD

Also, my HR manager was there and before the run, he said 'IF YOU DONT GET TOP 3, DONT COME TO OFFICE ON MONDAY'.....i assumed it was a FREE LEAVE for me....so, Jymmy, do i still get my FREE LEAVE? i ended up top 3.....

Listening to : ONE OK ROCK - Re:make
Mood : Lethargic (i dun like naps)

I am almost, but i'm not

whoa....it's been 5 months since i last updated anything here.
nope, not dead yet... Just that i couldn't find the mood, or inspiration to write anything concerning my life here.

But anyway, i'm here....
There are a few backlogs that i will update in the future.
(stuffs like photoshoots, and my obsession to the more-human-like world...*coughsbenedictcumberbatch*)

ANYWAY~~
today's entry is just another normal post.
Oh, i received flowers in office today. (nope, not sent by any secret admirer...don't think i have any..T^T)
They were 6 lovely Sunflowers sent by my closest colleagues (i could actually call them sisters already...we basically spend our holidays together..heck, even helped them shift stuffs to their new house)
Thanks Giao Giao and Gaisi....i really felt so much better after the cheering up....
Loving the flowers~~~ <3 br="">

It's now on my table, giving me the sunshine i need everyday~

THEN, my journey to the gym was cut short by the disastrous traffic jam. Took me almost 2 hours to reach home. Usually only took me 20 minutes to reach home/gym. Apparently there was a crane that fell on a vehicle somewhere near a construction site. While i'm really sorry for the person who was involved, i'm kinda pissed off by those busybodies that stop and look.
Traffic Jams in Malaysia are usually caused by busybodies like those...not the actual accident victims.
Bunch of losers....

As i reached home, i thought..okay, maybe i'll just watch a couple of Criminal Minds episode and call it a day.
But, the worst news came in.
Received a phone call from my sister-in-law...and she told my mom that....well......let's just say, i am almost, but not just yet. (i know it doesn't make any sense...but meh....don't think i wanna say much anymore.)

Stress from work isn't helping out much either. All that is keeping me going is my Japan Trip in November.
Maybe this is a difficult time for my family, i just wish the powers that be could give us all the strength to pull through.
I may look all cheerful outside (i try to, i need to...my family doensn't need another moody-looking person to dampen the day..not when my bro is all bad mood almost all the time after he started working)

The only place i can rant is well..this blog of mine.
But don't worry, i'm not about to break down. I know i have family, friends and people who care for me. So i'm going to pull through, fight through and be cheerful ol' me again.....
I just need time. (seriously, now...i'm taking Orphenadol...i have no idea what that is, but that's what the doctor prescribed me)

Listening to : Ren Jinguji - FREEDOM
Mood : =___=