WHOa...my diet today....

WOW....i think it's been a while since i last managed to go through a full strict diet for a full day..
well, dunno why though....maybe i have no appetite......i just...didn't feel hungry....^^;;;

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Breakfast
- Bread and Vegetable Juice
- 1 piece of Guava

Pre Lunch
- Biscuits

Lunch
- 2 Slices of Wholemeal bread with tuna/vege/chilli sauce/pepper (yes..i have funny tastebuds)
- 1 glass of Soyabean
- 1 Slice of Pineapple

Tea
- 1 Packet of Munchy Biscuits (3 small pieces)
- Plain water

Dinner (Pre workout)
- Wholemeal Chicken Sandwich from Rotiboy
- Plain Water

After workout
- Coffee~~~~~~ (yes, i know it's unhealthy)
- 1 slice of Guava

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ANd that's that for today....
No wonder i'm feeling damn tired now.......LOL...
Let's see how long i can take from this crash course ya....

Listening to : Mika Nakashima - Sakurairo
Mood : Sleepy..and Exhausted....=_=

Frustration? anger? i don't know....

These few days...i feel really uneasy......
(no no...it's not THAT time of the month)

I dunno why, but i often felt.....frustrated and angry....but i don't know why...
i've been trying to search for the reason behind this funny feeling, but till today, i still don't know why i feel so..

Frankly speaking, when riko called me to talk to me about the photoshoot....i didn't feel as excited as i was like last time...why is it so?
is it the stress?

I may look all smiley and happy outside..but at times, i feel really..frustrated..with...nothing!
that's the main problem.....
I keep telling myself.....
'tomorrow's a brand new day....it'll definitely be better than today'
but is that really true?
am i lying to myself?

Ok, i suspect that the frustration is due to my weight gain......well, at least i feel that i've gained weight...
i seriously feel my obsession with weight loss is slowly going out of control. I keep feeling that i'm fatter than yesterday, and my face is rounder than the day before......
I kept feeling guilty after having a meal, and thoughts of THAT slowly come creeping into my mind (though, i didn't do it....)
Is this a disorder? am i psychologically sick?

I can't afford to go on mental breakdown now....
oh...apart from that, i notice that my coffee craving is getting higher.....
i keep thinking of those beans in Starbucks, Gloria Jeans and the likes.......
shitz......i want to drink tea...but oh well, we've been forbidden to go get hot water during working hours....pfft....what more can i say?
the cafein craving is.......ARGH..!!!!!
ok, i'm gonna force myself to sleep now.........

btw, people who know me...please don't call me on my phone...i don't feel like talking.....
if anything, just sms me.....or email....i just don't feel like talking.....
don't ask me why i am like this, or what happened...
nothing happened..i'm just feeling....emo now....

Listening to : Pandora Hearts - Everytime you kissed me
Mood : Emo........oTL

Klang Centro 6km Marathon...my legs are not mine...=_=

Finally, after days and weeks of training on the dreaded threadmill....it was the day of the marathon....

(FYI, me and tiff signed up for this Klang Centro run in August..well, let's just say for teh excitement and experience....Much thanks to Sandy for notifying us of this run)


So, Tiff came over to my place for the weekend and the night before the run, we were supposed to go to bed earlier, but turned out, we slept only after 1am..in fact, i slept at 2 something...
(no thanks to the Murtabak Kambing...TIFF YOUR FAULT LA!!)


So, we woke up at 6am, and then after seeing enough stars after waking up....we finally went to the venue. GOsh, i didn't know there were SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many participants..!!!
i was half asleep walking around the place....LOL..

The only thing in my mind was my bed...i mean, come on, who in their right mind would wake up at 6am on a Sunday morning to run under the hot sun for 6km!?!?

The participants....damn bersemangat wei~

me and Tiff before the run...(damn sleepy i tell you..-_-)

When we were finally flagged off....i ran alongside Tiffany....then slowly, i paced faster and further away from Tiff. It's a good thing Tiff understands that when in Marathon, no one is supposed to wait for the other.....Tiff is a great Marathon partner...LOL..she actually shoo-ed me away when i told her i might dash off...LOL...

So....as i paced further away from Tiff, i switch on my media player on my hp...i needed the tempo and momentum to push me forward...

the first 2 km was the hardest....it was to get me into the mood of the marathon, and many a time, i almost gave up and walked...But good thing i didn't...i presevered....LOL...

Finally, after 5 songs in my hp, i reached the finish line.....I wouldn't say it was a difficult run..

It was WAAAYYYy harder doing it on the threadmill....at least this run i get to go on my own pace...

I was the 53rd runner to reach in my category (and i think there were more than 250 participants for my category)

Well, not bad for a first timer eh?

OH OH..!! did i mention? i got a medal for finishing as the first 100 to reach the finish line.

I think it took me around 35 minutes to complete the 6km run.

This was the first time i ran the whole way throughout the marathon....I didn't even run the whole way during secondary school..LOL!!

Personally, i'm kinda proud of myself...i managed to pull through and run all the way...and got a finishing medal for this marathon event. I guess gym really did help me in my stamina and endurance building...XD...

me and Tiff after the run..SEE MY MEDAL!?!? XD

JENG JENG JENG!!!!

It was a fun but tiring experience.!!!

and now, my legs....are not mine..haha..

i wonder if i'd have to sit the whole day tomorrow..haha...i'm starting to feel the sore feet now....

anyways......TSU! SEE WAH! HUI CHING! JIA!.....you guys wanna join the run next time? it'd be fun..!! let's see if we could push ourselves to the limit..!!!

Listening to : Ookiku Furikabutte - Dramatic

Mood : Tired....Sleepy....

A good listener, a bad advicer.....

yes, i felt helpless...

when one truly needed me to be an advicer, i couldn't utter a single word out of my mouth..

I wanted to, but i couldn't find the right words....

I felt helpless...

I may be a good listener, but i'm bad at advices and words of comfort..

but it doesn't mean that i do not care..

in fact, i care as much as what normal people would feel....

I'd give it my all to help.....

well, the bottomline...

i felt useless and helpless..

at a time like that, i just.....kept quiet...

i tried to search for the words, but it just wouldn't come out..

i'm truly a dissapointment....i'm truly dissapointed in myself...

Listening to : Boyzone - Picture of you

Mood : Dissapointed.....in myself....oTL

Hito's emo moment~

Yeap....here i am again...to rant..

This time, it's about me bring emo.....

OKAY..first things first..

see that number up there *points to the 7kg crap*

i haven't been taking my weight lately because i do not want to see a number that is well...not to my liking...

Yes, with mooncakes and birthdays all around, i find it difficult to not only lose, but to maintain my current weight...

It might just be me, but i feel that i've piled on quite A LOT of weight lately...

What is happening?

i really do not know..

am i feeling depressed? well, now i AM......

GAh...just one word...i feel FAT!

Is this like...somekind of psychological disorder? 

It's a good thing i still workout in the gym....otherwise i don't know what would have become of me...

*imagines....HUGE FAT BLOB*

HITO...YOU HAVE GOT TO BUCK UP AND BE MORE DETERMINED..!!

CF IS LESS THAN 3 MONTHS AWAY!!!!

YOU DON'T WANNA LOOK LIKE A HUGE FAT BLOB IN A COSTUME BURSTING AT ITS SEAMS!

*notes to self*

no more snacks, no more mooncakes.....

Listening to : W-inds - Ageha

Mood : Demotivated....|||oTL

Walk the Dog~woof!

OKay...today was an odd day...

i don't know how to describe this day, but somehow i felt kinda happy and above the clouds..

I dont know why....

I've been in a good mood since morning....I've been singing and crapping stuffs in the office with my colleagues...

and it's A MONDAY..!!LOL..

I have no idea why.....(it's not as if i slept damn early...in fact, that sunday night i slept at 2.30am...thanks to my bro playing Kingdom Hearts 2 in my room, and his influence on me to play the PSP.)

lol..the whole situation was like this..

i was playing PSP on my bed, and my bro was playing PS2 on the other side of my room...LOL..

then we have all those battle sounds blasting throughout the room..(i had my PSP plugged onto my speakers)

And to make things even more hilarious, he was playing Kingdom Hearts 2 in a battle with Sephiroth...and i was playing crisis core (AGAIN)...So, his game had sephiroth asking

'WHAT IS CLOuD DOING'

lol..well, cloud is in my psp...half dead..(look up on crisis core's Zack's final battle epilogue--you'll get what i mean...XD)

ANYWAY~~~ back to topic..

after office today, when i got home, my dad invited me to go for an evening walk..

i thought, oh well..since marathon is this weekend, why not?

WELL.....my dad's definition of walk means...'BRING MiLO ALONG!'...

OH BOY.....it was one hell of a exercise...@_@

i was dragged around like a mad person, running along with MiLO...and having to pull him back everytime he barked and approached big dogs...

MiLO would run all over the place everytime i take him out for walks..

and when he reached home..he'll be DAMN TIRED...

(who the heck asked him to bark and run around like a mad pooch?)

This is how he looked like after the walk....

see how he's 'perspiring'? LOL...long tongue is LONG!

another tired but crazy pup..LOL

too tired to focus on me i guess..LOL..

ANYWAy.....It was good exercise i would say...LOL.....though, MiLO is DAMN noisy when he goes out..it's as if he makes it known to everyone that he is coming..haha..

Listening to : Ookiku Furikabute -Arigatou
Mood : =_=

I HAVE SINNED..!!!!

HOMG...MOTIVATION..WHY DID YOU SUDDENLY ABANDONE ME??!?!
WHY YOU SUDDENLY 'GO ON LEAVE'?!?!!

you see la..!!
i...
ate...

SATAY..!!!!
OH NOESSSSSSSSSSSSsss..!!!!!!
(and it's from Kajang..LOL)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAA....i have to work extra harder tomorrow in Gym....
><;;;

AAAAAAAAA..!! BAD BAD SIN..!!!!!
(ok...my mom was partially the culprit....she TEMPTEd me with the aroma..)

AAAAAAAAAAAAA..!!!!!!!
sometimes, i hope i can SHIT out everything i eat..hahaha...
ok....i'm plain crapping..LOL!!!

Listening to : Gundam 00 Season 2 - Trust You
Mood : Feeling...Guilty..~